Be Happy!

It has been so long...

2009-12-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

since i last blogged.

I'm starting to feel not sure of how this is going to end up. Since I almost always end up going back to writing in diaries because they are much more convenient. and i am not sure who will read this or even notice this but still, it's worth a try...

Well, its the holidays and i havent been doing much lately. Other than training for black belt (though i know im not training hard enough) and going back for CT'10 trainings. CT trainings are much more eventful and more worth recording.

CT is fun. Brings back many memories from my CT life. CT'06, CT'08... though it may hurt sometimes, its still nice to think back on how we used to train-so fiercely. CT'10 is improving fast. I dunno about basha yet but i can see that flag is steadily improving. Just 2 trainings and they've managed to get their timing under 8 minutes! thats quite a feat okay! although they only unleashed their potential due to some serious competition between them and their trainers, its is still commendable and they should work on it. Woohoo. We may want to expect great things coming from CT'10. :)

I need to stop slacking so much. Seriously. zzz. I hate my slackish can't get out of it attitude. I keep wanting to go back for CT trainings and tkd trainings and i'd rather train than think about my homework. this is not good. --"

Now i should stop going back to nanyang to train people and start training MYSELF because there is no more time... but i just love the blisters and the feel of rope burn. If campcraft were a sport i would want to be a campcraft-er.

ooo! talking about sport, looks like we're doing quite well for SEA games. hahaha. yay! happy for us! :D

I dont really like competitions. grahs.

okay im really random. I shall go work on the blogskin now. If i remember how to...

2008-02-20T10:56:00.003+08:00

already got one year never blog here liao. this is just for fun. =D

i still like thios blog skin the best. but blogger very ma fan leh. somemore slow. haha.

nothing much to say leh.

i want to watch 大长今 and 至父亲母亲 again... but no time leh. ar. whatever whatever. wait till december when i have time. i will make up for all the tv sessions i missed. i never watch tv lately lor. so busy and tired when im done. i only watch tvs on weekends can. what nonsense. argh. i got alot of things to do. NP, school plus graces is coming. sian.

lesson over liao. =D

2007-02-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

i have moved!

jomain39.wordpress.com

please relink!

2006-12-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

ok. it took almost half an hour to load. as in this page. wow.

yesterday was christmas. i shant say anything about what i did in the morning but in the afternoon i went out with sqdms. we went the heeren. spent the whole day there. i spent $30 altogether. i was supposed to get present for huishan. i got her a bath towel. i could find a nice and affordable wallet. time plan was like this:

1200 -- meet at somerset MRT station.
after that. went to eat at sakae sushi. spent a whole $10.85 there.
after that window shopping.
ard 1415 own shopping time to buy present for who i was supposed to get it for which was huishan.
1430. haven found a present for huishan yet
1445 got nervous and pissed about it and decided on a cute pooh bath towel. it was pretty. anw i bought i cos i rmb her saying that she wanted one.
after that met up with sqdms again and we shopped for ju's present. jieqi got her a tee shirt.

anyway i got a cute cow cup from yinhwee. it came in a nice pretty box. i went to plaza to get book from library but only rmb-ed that when i reached the library. so i went around looking at nice nice things. i found a nice voodoo doll pouch in mini toons. it ~~was~~ is cute.

today had act. not so bad. quite ok if you come to think about it. then i went to ah-ma's house. thought about alot of things. slept. woke up and practiced doing a fireman's chair. and yinhwee, using your method, i got it in 6 seconds for 4 times!!! muahahhaha.

going to fly to chiang mai tonight. will not be back until 31st. this sunday. doubt i will be blogging till then. bye bye everyone.

2006-12-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

i read jiawen's blog. and i cannot believe my eyes. it took me long to register that her dd actually thought i was a guy. i should see that picture cos i so dun remember it. she named it my boyfriend and me. wow. created such misunderstanding.

went caroling again. i din sing much btw. other ppl sing. i listen to some. and i sing some. would say wasted a whole night. but not really wasted lah. at least i had a night outside home. i wanna go out tmr. but i have to finish my commonwealth essay. maybe i'll finish it tonight.

nothing else to say le. i need to rest and sleep. i am tired. i want to go out tmr.

2006-12-24T13:48:00.000+08:00

ok. this blog post is meant for yesterday.

yesterday was the carolling day. many many ppl came my house and i locked myself in the room and was anti-social. preparation was well, tiring. i went down to NTUC many many times to buy either garbage bag or weird weird things. than i went to BPP to get the log cake and went to south view that side to get beehoon and almond cubes from auntie poh suan. and my mm cooked many many nice food.

clear up was not that bad. just that dd vacummed and mopped the floor. thats it. and we clear-up the excess food which was not alot. my mm's fried rice was very popular. the container jian4 di3 liao. haha. then i tried to blog but it was too late and i was tired so i off-ed the com as soon as i on-ed it.

this morning i woke up and i read. oh i forgot to add that i finished ran2 shao1 ba4! huo2 niao3 yesterday. nice book. but not the best. i still like xin1 you3 qian1 qian1 jie2 better. i wanna watch the movie. cant seem find it anywhere. i wanna visit the library later. but dunno mm let anot.

this is not good. i havent packed my bag. i only have today and tmr to finish my commonwealth essay and pack up my luggage. leaving on tuesday evening. i will go for act in the morning to help in sleeping on the midnight plane.

hope i get my mp3 by tmr. but i think its not very possible. dunno whether mm planning to go out tmr. i think sqdms want to go out tmr but nobody told me anything yet so yah.

=)

2006-12-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

ok. today we had DALT. honestly i would have prefered to run 2 round round the school than do whatever we did today. ah but what could we do??? nvm. anyway. i think my coordination with qing was quite good today although jiao lian still say we very lan. maybe bah. dunno. just jiayou lor. we practiced shi throughout whole of DALT. sad.

after DALT i bought new uniform from the school and i felt very very dumb. like i was sec one. god, i am sec 3 next year.

we went to ah-ma's house today. hai. i dunno. everyone was very down. every family has its own problems bah. honestly i seriously feel that money cannot buy happiness but it actually plays a big part in how happy you can get. especially in this realistic world. without money you have nothing. family and all can bring warmth but not for long. not that i am putting family love down or something but seriously think, without money, with debtors chasing you from everywhere, will you think of family love?? woah.

anw, i went to IMM to get stuff for dd's caroling tmr. we providing dinner and it took like what, $200++ from my dd's pocket. and yet he pay so willingly lor. must ask for allowance rise next year. almost got an mp3. if only they din run out of stock. i wanted the 512 de but no stock. then ask for the 256 one she also say dun have. that means she is trying to tell me to get the 1GB one which cost $94.90. i din have that much money.

dd fetched us home from there and now we are preparing for tmr. must go keep all my personal stuff liao.

2006-12-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

ok. i have 20 more minutes to 0000. which means 20 more minutes to blog before i go to sleep.

today was quite a nice slackish day. i woke up at 1024. its much better than 6.30 everyday kinda thing. and i guess my body got accustomed to wake up as late as possible without disturbance so much so that i had a good night yesterday.

tmr got DALT. guess i am done. shiku not that dry but should be fine after my pretty ironing. what can i expect from such wet weather. not that worried about PT tmr. i will do fine. *convinces myself*

i just sort of quarrelled with my dd. he was rather unreasonable but i dun want to blog about it. reasons being:

1. i dun wanna badmouth my dd.
2. i dun want my blog to turn into a page for rants.

well, as you can see, most of my posta are rather calm if not hyper in a positive manner. that is because after i decided to keep a blog, that i will never use it for ranting and complaining purposes. it will be a record of my daily life (as much as possible that is). and it will NOT be used to rant and compain. ya. so i live by that and i blog by that.

so i let myself 3 hours after that quarrell to cool down and i guess i was quite "cool" just now when i talked back to him. though i was crying. and it din stop until ard 5 minutes after he left me alone. ya. so that was it.

today, if you really want to consider it, is a very nice day. well because after yesterday and dreading tmr, you feel really lucky that you actually have one day in between to rest and rejuvenate(however you spell it). well, tmr will be fine. i know that. muahahaha.

guess tiring yourself out during NP can be considered a good thing cos it makes you cherish your off-days more.

happalighted as per normal.

i also dunno why. guess i am just one happy person. one is only truly happy when he/she is happy without reason. sounds so weird. maybe it is.

2006-12-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

today has dalt. it was not so terrible. PT wasnt as "hiong" as i expected it to be. it was only one round. i expected 2-3. well i guess my stamina is getting better. i wasnt panting like a pig after that one round. and i felt quite good actually.

dalt on the whole was good. just kept wu-shi wu-shi and wu-shi. after all only got 2 shi-weis. that was so painful. everytime must change style. for eg, jinqing and huishan has totally different styles of wu-ing. jinqing wu at a greater angle than huishan. huishan more easy to follow but i think jinqing's shi looks better. and after that when shi-tous lian-ing that time me and yinhwee got nothing to do. so maams talk with us and they teach us abit of gu. i got no sense of rhythm. keep on cannot get it right. than when maams say its right i think it sounds wrong.

oh i forgot to say that we actually had 3 shiweis. but yuanhan fell down during PT and hurt her back and she was in great pain and she sort of went home. actually she went to hospital. not home.

after DALT, we wanted to go see yuanhan but she was going home so we decided to go to CCK see whether can go her house anot. we had lunch there. i ate cai4 fan4. i am starting to like cai fan alot. then we went to lot 1 see see look look. huishan was very helpful in helping me find my totti but unfortunately, we couldnt find it. so my future totti is still awaiting me somewhere. than we walk walk go library. i found "period pieces". that book that i read many many times as a child. ok. maybe not that long ago. when i was 10. primary 4 that time. even reading it than i felt like laughing at them write their feeling cos it just never occured to me that having your period would be so scary for some. haha.

than i went to BPP to look for mm. we bought dinner. than dd fetched us home and i slept. until 6 o'clock. watched an episode of cries. really. bei4 pan4 ai4 qing2 was weird. yaliying's mum died and the whole episode, all i rmb was cries. even got different kind of cries one lor. got crazy kind. painful kind. sobbing kind. and all in one episode. seems as if that episode got nothing better to do but cry. but was quite touching lah.

after that watched i cannot rmb the title, its too long. than i went down to senja grand than came back. actually wanted to blog then but mm wanted me to help her clean kitchen cabinet. see everyone was there but me. so i went to help her until chong shang yun xiao show than i watched it. went to bathe after that and am here now.

i would like to add that i borrowed alot of books. many many story books.

2006-12-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

okie. today was quite a nice day. finished the whole math worksheet. i keep having the impression that the worksheet is 6.1 but think about it logically, we have done more than 7 chapters in sec 2 and haven't started a single one in sec 3 so how can it be 6.1????? nvm.

i woke up for a few seconds again at 6.34 this morning and woke up again at 9 something or 10 something. din go to beach road or west mall cos they all seem so far. but will go there soon. i need to get the things i need. and stock up socks also. my socks are getting saggy.

ok, this morning i got the song jia-ren-qu found in the house of flying daggers i watched yesterday. then i got da-yu. thinking of getting an mp3 but still in thinking stage. well, i dun really need it and it ain a great big desire to have it so i dunno. but it would be nice and cool to have one so. ya. still haven decided. if i decide and ju haven sold her mp3 player to anyone i might get it from her at $75 if i din rmb the price wrongly. ya, whatever. i later in the end never buy than funny liao lor.

act tmr. need full u. i prepared liao. i am happy. i decided to plant another onion cos my ginger is growing very slowly and my jie's potato is growing very fastly. ya. =) we bought mei's books today.

i have nothing else to say le. thats it. i scared i change very slow tmr. very long nvr wear full u liao. scared scared. but jiayou anw. =) . . . . i have something for fullstops. i like them. . .

2006-12-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

ok. its really scary but i am getting up at 6.30 every day now. i woke up at 6.37 this morning. still i got myself to go back to sleep and woke up again at 11.24.

woke up and watched strawberry shortcake with owen. ate butter cookies and was about to eat a cup of cup noodles when mm came home with breakfast. mixed veg rice. the veggie was nice to eat.

then after that i went to prepare uniform and now my uniform is ready to be worn. but i wont need it till tuesday so lets leave it there till tmr night.

then i went to sleep and woke up at 5 something. i wont be able to fall asleep tonight. then went for dinner, then came back then watch house of flying daggers. i was quite sure i watched it before and i din like the show but i watched it again anw and now i am going to remind myself never to watch it again cos zhang zhiyi died. and i am very upset about it cos i like zhang zhiyi! and jin cheng wu also very shuai. too bad they din get together.

i wanna buy xiao yu'er yu hua wuque. its a very nice show. but must wait until later abit cheaper that time than buy.

its been very long since i last changed my blogskin but i dun feel like changing it cos its so nice. so i have decided that i dun want to change it now. my ma just bought this ear cleaning thing and its very effective. i just cleaned my ear and its quite cool. haha. it works lor.

just called huishan to realise that sqdms din go for steamboat. i think because many ppl din want to go. ppl like me. and jiawen asked me whether i got a sony dunno what and i dunno what that was so i told her no and she haven reply yet.

tmr, mm and dd not working. doubt i can go to school but i'll try. my christmas tree is nicely up and i got the honor of putting up the replacment for the star(an angel). well probably cos nobody else in my family can reach it. well my dd doesnt count cos he was driving taxi. i know lah. in school i have yuan han and other ppl taller than me but at home im the tallest can! hahahahaha.

happalighted.

2006-12-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

ok. we just got a christmas tree but i dun see what so exciting about it. ya, so what if its the first bought christmas tree bought in my house and its the first time in 14 years that i see a christmas tree decorated just before me but what so great about it? i dun see it.

i think i am getting anti-social. keep rejecting offers to go out. sqdms going steamboat tmr. i not going. reasons: i scared i trigger another one of my mum's nerve and she dun talk to me again. see she hasnt been talking to me for the past 4-5 days since i keep going to school for farewell and she was really mad and the many times i suffered her cold replies without crying, its like, wow. today was a really good day. i dun want to go back into that mood again. no.2, i got no money and we just had a steamboat the last time. but what a pity it would be if i din go. argh. no.3, tmr got family dinner just as on all sundays and i dun want to miss it cos i haven been eating with my family for so very long. hai. so difficult to choose. sry sqdms. if i get the guts to ask my mum i will tell you by tmr 2.30. sorry.

today we had a great cleaning. now my house looks so clean. we sold the karang guni man 7 huge garbage bags of soft toys. i went down to the NTUC to buy a pack of garbage bags cos i donated all of mine to farewell. then we sold 2 irons, 1 handphone, 1 fan and 2 garbage bags of bags and 2 huge piles of i-weekly. also newspaper thats left after the huge pile i brought on prep and all we got was $7.70 i think.

my family is now keesiao decorating the christmas tree, and owen is totally mad. house will be open to dd's church choir for caroling. hope it turns out well.

i got a pair of magnets called rattle snakes. quite cool. the sound it gives out when they knock together very fun. =)

think i am addicted to waking up at 6.30. woke up this morning at 6.30 without anyone calling me. anw, i got myself to sleep back because i was really tired. going to see whats so nice about the christmas tree now. tata.

2006-12-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

ok. i realised i havent been blogging since monday. well many many things happened during this whole week and some i cant even remember myself. well. will just blog about prep to clear-up.

wednesday.
preparation for farewell. practically shook myself awake pouring huge pails of COLD water over myself. couldnt help it. i was really sleepy. i woke up at 5.45 i think. reached school at 6.45 or later. finished up present for 37 maams and did last minute pre-preparation. prep i think went quite well. we finished most things on that day. left breakthrough to dry, decorations all up, tunnel leading to breakthrough finished. many things done. had a good sense of achievement.

thursday.
farewell. again had to wake myself up from nice comfy cold bed. i just realised that without my blanket i can actually get very cold. my mm washed my blanket and it was freezing cold. anyway, we did more preparation and finished everything at 1 something. waited around until 2 something before we acted as huai4 ren2. was so nervous. anyway, sqdms told maams about our weakness and when maam came and saw the words "Mojojojo" they started screaming and i could do nothing to stop them. maams were almost in a way "desperate" i would say. they were funny. though it was a pity that maams din go through the tunnel, but i guess they appreciated it. anw, thinking about it, if it were me i would not go in too if i had a choice. performance went well. din screw it up.

served ex-maams food and drinks until i think maams wanna tell us not to go ask them anymore cos there is only like so many maams and so many of us. after that we ate abit and had company talk. delta gave maams prawns and apron. maams gave us very nice picture frame. the picture very nice. although black and white, it looks good on the background. thank you maams! =) actually maams say its not very nice but i think not lor. i like it alot leh. its not ke4 dao4 hua4 ok! i mean it.

guess when we gave 37 maams present we din get the effect that we wanted so i think we better not try it again cos it is so not going to work. and it didnt. connie maam's necklace came out but me and jiawen repaired it with the scissors that huishan got for us. then we talked abit and played ball. 38 maams were playing badminton with 37 maams. then song session quite leng3. maybe our farewell ask cadets dun arrange song session. possible?

clear-up.
went to school early. cleared spiral staircase finish then shift benches. fall in. after that i dun want to say more. but we had a good talk with 38 maams and i am starting to think that actually we din think in 38 maams shoes. everytime only think about ourselves. then maybe somethings can dun be so mean to them. feeling quite mean.

came home and slept. then. i just rejected an offer to go out with ex-classmates. feels weird going out with them after so many times never go. and then again sometimes when sqdms wanna have meeting and it clashes with their outing i would choose to go with sqdms. so in the end i very long never go out with them le. maybei quite mean but i dun wanna feel awkward with them and i should not go out these few days cos mm very not happy with me liao. everyday go out so early and come back do late. to add on, i need to sleep tmr. anw. can go out anytime but tmr till next whole week.

i am happy.

2006-12-11T18:34:00.000+08:00

ya. din blog yesterday. but yesterday was a nice day.

woke up at 10.30. realised i was late. i was supposed to meet sqdms at cck at 11.00 but i overslept. went to yuanhan's house, did many many things. ate curry cooked by yuanhan's mm and it was nice. though i would be better if it was spicy but yuanhan cannot eat spicy food so it wasnt spicy. beehoon was good too.

today. pulled myself up from bed to go to school. tmr got act. doing flag. yay. i like flag. hope i pass cc test. nono. i will pass cc test.

went to school and i brought beehoon guo tiao and i became my breaklunch. or rather branch. whatever you like to call it. we practiced, played and did many many things. i am not so worried now. we went out of school to get some things and came back again. went to btp. sqdms ate kfc. i ate my beehoon branch at 2.00. my leg with the huge bruise is hurting like siao and its getting more and more swollen. cannot cheng3 qiang2 anymore. its getting quite bad. jie says its healing.

ya ya. dinning in tonight. minced meat and vege. would prefer rice if there were any. i am quite hungry.

2006-12-09T20:49:00.000+08:00

haha. my other computer is so slow. keep losing the game cos of the slowness.

this morning went to bank with mm and dd. used a whole morning there. came home and did puzzle. haven finished it yet but its gonna be done soon. i slept. dreamt, did many many things. reading fallen angels now. quite gross in some parts esp when the guy rapes the woman.

playing msn games now. quite fun leh. i got 2 badges. =D

going yuanhan's hse tmr. campcraft practical exam on 28th Dec. i going overseas. to thailand.

happalighted.

2006-12-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

changed my account to blogger beta. dunno whats the difference. nvm. asked sok but she ain answering me.

just got my plant back from my auntie who was taking care of it. my plant grew bigger. 2 leaves bigger. my sister's potato plant grew huge. its much bigger than when i last saw it.

ya, ya. finished inverse variation and will do worksheet tmr or sunday. i am happy.

2006-12-08T15:10:00.000+08:00

. just got back from malaysia. home sweet home. feel so good here. haven been blogging for quite some time. here goes:

Monday, 4th December 2006:

left for malacca. i was official navigator. so we din wake up early enough at 0400 and we only reached checkpoint at 8 something. jammed. waited and only got in to malaysia at 0942 if i din remember wrongly. passed primary clearance and secondary clearance. passed malaysia customs and almost got my hand broken cos my dad almost drove off without looking at my hand outside the window.

from JB, took the northsouth expressway and passed almost 20 plus plus exits. was a really long ride. reached malacca XXX resort at 12. checked in. got a camp briefing from dd's church camp coordinator. and we wandered off.

joined in some activities but most of the time was spent with jie and mei in the apartment.

Tuesday:

food was almost similar to yesterday. i never knew chilli could be considered a dish. wow. it was like, nasi lemak, beans, hotdog and chilli as one dish. not bad ya?

nothing else that day. stayed in apartment for one whole long day doing nothing.

Wednesday:

sight seeing. we went to the bee museum there and a st paul's church. was quite nice. took many many photos. wasnt feeling quite well that day. had the runs and you know. was quite uncomfortable the whole day. anw, i still got sqdms souvenirs. errr. keychains again. but i swear it will be better for thailand trip. will get something nicer ok? thailand trip 27th to 31st. rmb. get presents from me after i come back.

mei broke a tap at the place and flooded the whole apartment and the house keeping ppl din clear up and me and jie had to do it up. mei watched and told us: "the best help i can give you is not to help." whch we all agree with but still, its all her fault.

Thursday:

this is my first exciting day.

i fell from a slide. well the slide was steep and i zoomed from high high and i fell on my butt. and it hurt.

next wanted to go kayaking but mei was rather chicken and in the end was afraid of being a dead chicken so she backed out and me and jie couldnt possibly leave her out there on land alone and so wen din go kayaking. we went swimming.

i got nice tan. woah. i tell you when i got out of the pool i looked a dirty brown. but i am a nice colour now.

then i went go-carting. erm. erm. i had an accident and i knocked into the wall. see. i was kind of speeding and i din brake properly and i just knocked through the tyres set as circuits and knock into a wall and got some huge big bruise on my right calf. my butt hurts. so does my thigh. never speed on a go-cart. this is not fair lor. cassmain was speeding and she din even knock a tyre(she almost did but din in the end) jie was driving at tortise speed.

talking about tortise, i fell in love with jie's tortise and decided to buy one myself. shall call it totti. pronounced, tor-ti.

Friday:

come home day. slept in the car. reached home.

On the whole:

i got to meet a guy at the camp and i dunno his name but somehow, i think he thought i am guy. ok. so what if half the population sees me and approach my parents saying: "how old is your SON?" and they have to tell them a few times that they have 3 daughters and no son before they register that i am a girl. i believe that i have at least some girl-like features in me lor! back to that guy, he became my "brother". i think he only suspected i was a girl when he saw my earsticks. for ppl who dun know, i have earholes since i was 2.

the water at XXX resort was rather weak. you practically had to kiss the wall to bathe under it.

watched some nice shows. catwoman, kodomo vs. cobra, etc.

realised that the phone could not work at our apartment and asked the reception about it and was told that phones in block 3 from 6th floor upwards dont work! haha. so much for a nice resort. i stayed on the 8th floor.

came back happy and got myself many first times. go-carting and accident. and the bruise is huge i tell you. it hurts.

when i got back and checked my hp, hs sent me 4 mesages. i freaked at the message when she said cc test was today at 1330. its 1545 now.

happy. =)

2006-12-03T14:14:00.000+08:00

going to malacca tonight. wont be in the country till 9th. will not be bringing my hp i think. ya.

done with my packing. need to pack personal bag. then get camera. ya. din do inverse variation yesterday night. maybe will do later. im bored. shall go find something to do. =)

will not be blogging until i come home. doubt theres a computer there. and my dd will not be bringing his laptop. hai.

2006-12-02T16:17:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10 something just now. slacked. read. ate. then decided to be a good girl and do math. so i did direct variation and "other types of direct variation" and i finished textbook exercise 7a and 7b. so i can just copy over on NY foolscap and complete my worksheet. will do inverse variation maybe tonight or when i come back from malacca. dunno. see first. haha.

jieqi just flew off to dunno where this morning. zhiyi going to macau tmr. me to malacca on monday. jinqing at chalet. haha. sqdms holiday report.

i havent packed my bag yet. this is bad. tonight must pack. maybe i am to mentally awake liao. every night also cannot sleep. yesterday spent the whole day outside and i sleep so very soundly. anw, before i fell alseep yesterday, i watched batman on tv. it was the old old version that when they fight and hit each other that time, words like "pow" "bang" "ooowww" "oooofff" will come out and it was weird. so funny. the batman want to fly that time still must stand on crates de. haha.

just cooked curry. dd having church dinner tonight. so mm cooked curry for him to bring. i cut the potatoes and carrots and tomatoes and garlic and shrimps. when i went down to senja grand to buy oil i din dare to touch anybody. my hand smelt like garlic. so gross. then when i put the things in the pot that time, the chilli dirtied my clothes. i was in such a mess just now. so i took my shoes to the toilet and decided to wash them before i bathed. now i am clean and smelling good. =)

going to plaza later. changing money. =D

2006-12-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

ha! i bought a new wallet. oh. i buy alot of things ya? last time bag, now wallet. hai. waste so much money.

woke up from bed at 8.45. left house for the singapore examination and assesment board at 9.30. dd fetched us from RV high school and we went there. waited until almost 1 o'clock. hai. then actually want to take dd's car to mrt de, but on the way mm and dd quarrel so mm alighted dd's car in anger and we all follow her so we walked to tiong bahru plaza. bought my new wallet there and jie and mei both thinks its meant for guy but who says girl cannot use guy wallet??

then we took mrt to orchard. went to far east. ate lunch and bought books from sunny bookshop. bought dead guilty and dead secret. both i read already lah but borrowing it and owning it is different. then we spent more time there and walk and walk. then went to library @ orchad and i got many many more books. i think i am starting to read to much. and i read alot of english. hai. =)

then went back to far east. bought clothes for new year. buying clothes is such a painful thing for me. jie and mei finished buying everything today. i only bought a pair of pants. you know why? because all clothes shop only sell women clothes. i am a woman lah, but i dun like the clothes they sell. so... gross. so i ended up buying a pair of pants that the guy claims to be unisex but i think its for guys. nvm.

then we came back. watching tv now. happy. with my new wallet. =)

2006-11-30T17:19:00.000+08:00

hello! i would like to inform one and all that i have changed my no. please do not call 91814160 because all you will hear is: sorry the starhub number you have dailed is currently not in service, thank you. get my new number from me. or i will send an sms once i get all contacts in order. =D

from ytd to today, i slept for a total of 12 hours. i woke up at 12.18 this morning. an1 le4 xing3. went to mm office and slack. then change SIM card. got a new no. realised that they cut off my old line at 1500. and busied myself with my contacts. went to fajar 410 to look for jiawen who was visiting her cousins. then passed her my SANA questionnaires and mahjong paper 10 pieces. i will send her my report later. just finished it.

going to malacca on sunday night, monday morning. driving in. why is it sunday night monday morning? because if you set off at an unearthly hour of 0400, do you call it night or morning? 0400 people sleeping will call it night. afterall if you pee in your bed while sleeping at 0400 you will say "i peeed in my bed last night.". however, if you look at a digital watch, at 0000, it will tell you the date of what you call tmr so i am leaving singapore in between sunday night and monday morning. will get something back from malacca for sqdms and some ppl. i very sad leh. later go thailand that time must buy again. hai. burnt a hole in my pocket, burnt a hole in my pocket. anw, im only coming back on friday night. dd says i will get tired of malacca in 2 days time but i think not. afterall i havent been there.

happalighted.

2006-11-29T14:13:00.000+08:00

din go to school today. not feeling well. spent my whole morning sleeping. woke up at 11.15. hope this doesnt last till next monday. if not dunno how to go malacca. sigh.

reading. nothing to do. just finished lunch. no tv to watch. listening and drowning myself in NP songs. i feel bbbaaddd.

i need 2 more ppl to finish my questionnaire for SANA assignment. hope i can get it done by tmr.

sad.

2006-11-28T19:51:00.000+08:00

the thing i type in to blog suddenly went blue. i think its my com. i'll try again later. nvm blue looks quite cool anw.

puuuuuullllllled myself up from bed this morning. and i really was taking my own sweet time to bathe and wash up. went to school and we finished some things. then we went for lunch. i went to esso sqdms went coro. cos i had no money. huishan brought her own lunch so she went with me. i ate maggie mee which i dun quite like becos its not very spicy and not very tasty. it just lacks something.

left school after lunch and headed for jurong point. took 174. it wasnt double decker. i wanted to go library but got no time le because mm, jie and mei was reaching soon. so we watched happy feet and i dun quite like the show cos i think its quite impossible but nvm. it was still good.

went to library to borrow dead guilty and i got it. jurong west library is really good man. so huge and the books there are really GREAT. they have so many variety. i want to go there very very often.

came home and thats it. going to listen and hypnotise myself in NP songs before tmr and read at the same time!

got to be in school early tmr. aiyah. feeling weird. nose and throat all giving me problems. hope it gets better.

2006-11-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

so. campcraft theory test is over. i think i will pass, but my pressure lamp is..... how can nut become corner and glass chimney become glass cylinder??? and pump was so easy yet it became pumping mechanism. what in the world am i doing???

however, my tent pitching and flag went quite well(i hope) and my answers were filled in fully until got not enough space but still, it was very pretty.

after campcraft test i took the nylon home and i went to mm's office to fetch cassmain actually but in the end i din fetch her home because i stayed there myself. then i ate and at 2.00 i slept. until 4.00. i had a weird dream about a tiny tiger at the window grill and many many small lions on the pane. they were alive mind you and it was scary. but it wasnt the kind of scared that will make you shiver, its just worry that it will pounce on you kind of thing. anw, it was quite funny if you think about it now.

then i went to plaza and i walked with jie, mei and mm. i bought meatball soup and pig's stomach if thats what you call it and i liked the soup cos got salty vegetable. then i bought a bag. a very huge one. its orange. next year school bag. its a 2 in 1 bag actually and it looks very very good. ya. =)

i am very happy with my bag. =D

2006-11-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

i studied all the notes but nothing seems to be getting inside me. this is bad. very bad.

just came back from me grandma's house. ate dinner there, bought goods and slept in the car on my way back. very nice sleep.

yesterday dreamt about aeroplanes. no. this is not good. i am going keesiao watching chong shang yun xiao. this is bad.

going off.

2006-11-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

want to blog about this. we had a lucky draw on BBQ night. i got to choose the number and i chose 039. mei took 038 and the others were 037, 040, 048. 039 got me a hot water flask, 037 a slow cooker, 040 a grill oven. the others i cannot remember. but i was very disappointed in what 039 got me. i was expecting 039 to get top prize (DVD player) since 39 is such a beautiful number!!! so upset.

anw, i just went to IKEA. bought a shoe rack for my ginger plant. its growing very nicely.

observation:

young leaves of a ginger plant come from another leaf that is sort of rolled up. its very cute.
the plant grows at approx 1 new leaf per day.
the roots of a ginger plant is white.
the plant's stem grows in sections. each section has around one leaf.
my plant is growing.

anw, my pot is rather big. for my small young nice beautiful ginger plant.

i finished studying up till pressure lamp now and i am confident of passing. however, i still have no idea what a pressure lamp is. but i know that a pressure lamp works on not only fuel but pressure as well. although i dunno what that means. nvm. i will figure that out.

i am finishing xin you qian qian jie. my tv is OFFICIALLY spoilt. i can do magic. it auto-offs 5 seconds after the first try and 2 seconds for subsequent tries. not bad ar. quite cool right.

shall publish it here. i am happalighted. (look down for meaning, its very far down.)

2006-11-25T15:33:00.000+08:00

campcraft theory test on monday! studying. imagine what if i fail my theory test??? thats so painful. then i would have failed 2 tests in a row althought NWZ retest i passed lah but still failing is no good.

must study. just finished stopper knots and loop knots, lashings and aiyah, just knots and lashings lah. going on to the others later. will get jie or mei to test me. i will pass. no i must pass.

i just went to senja grand and bought myself 3 huge bounce rubber balls and i am very happy with them. its raining now. jiawen must be going keesiao. then i went to plaza with jie to print photos for her friend shaun's birthday. he going to have a great brithday i tell you. jie is putting in so much preparation work together with xinxian and aiky. sigh. if only someone would do that for me.

must go study le, still got alot to go. listening to da chang jin. haha.

2006-11-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

i am feeling so unwell. just returned all my books other than xin you qian qian jie. mei got mm to get her goong soundtrack. jie and i just visited sans book shop at bukit batok and we came back empty handed. yah. i just went to west mall and now i am back.

ytd's BBQ was fun to an extend. i finished dead secret ytd. ending was not as bad as huishan made it to be but was quite gross. rabbits. eewww.

played monopoly and ate mac at 3 something today. found an orange bounce ball that a-feng in chong shang yun xiao likes to play with. wonder if his studying method will work. will try it for campcraft theory test. must start studying le! this is bad. what if i fail my theory?? no this is bad. i must study.

i want to watch happy feet and step up. they all look very nice. and i still want to read dead guilty. plus all the others in the diane fallon series. patricia cornwell's predator and the others written by her dont appeal to me that much. dunno why. i just returned them.

i want to buy another bounce ball. will be good if it can bounce very nicely. not like this one, covered with dust. and i just bought many many wooden toys together with my jie and mei. might have fun doing them.

i will look for another rubber bouncing ball tmr at senja grand.

2006-11-23T17:27:00.000+08:00

hahhaa. i cut my hair again. wahaha. i think the guy thought i was guy lor. so funny.

went to school today. met up with sqdms. educated 4 ppl and i am left with 2. i am finishing soon!!!!! tmr got Dalt. i not going.

BBQ later. not excited cos its raining. how to BBQ in the rain. wonder wonder. hahha.

meimei wants to use com and i am left with 4 minutes. i still need to publish this and my laggy com takes a long time.

thanks chengxin, bear, chris and kexin for letting me educate you! =)

going to read dead secret. looking for dead guilty. maybe i will buy it from 2nd hand store. =D then can bring overseas. i dun like the idea of bringing library books overseas. will return all my books before i go. going malacca and thailand! =)

me is happy.

2006-11-22T10:24:00.000+08:00

i haven blogged for very long le. its like monday tuesday and today. anw. sunday was very fun!!!!

sunday:

squad steamboat. we were supposed to meet at marinabay mrt at 4. so me and jiawen decided to meet at cck mrt at 3. and i was punctual. i reached at 2.55. but jiawen was late!!!! she reached at 3.15 and made yinhwee very pissed cos she wait for very very very long! then we reached jurong east at 3.24 when we could have reached at 3.02. haha.

sat with many many sqdms the train to marina bay. then reached at 4.06. waited for some other sqdms. then left the mrt station. actually we wanted to find some bus to go to zhen fa huo hai xian one but in the end we got convinced by one uncle who say will give us pay $10 per person without drinks so we went up the van lor. i tell zhiyi maybe the person guai3 dai4 xiao3 hai2 one. then we all laugh.

ate steamboat. started at 4.30 something. till 5 something. then we went to fly kite. not successful at first but sqdms later got the kite up in the sky.

ard 7 something mm and dd came with many many people. xiao gugu they all and they eat at another table. but it started to rain so sqdms went home while i waited cos i couldnt eat anymore. haha.

monday:

SANA course. i passed the test. actually not very difficult de lah except for one qn i dunno whether trick or not. the motto of SANA one. i thought to strive towards a drug-free singapore was the mission. but everyone say it was true. i also dunno lah.

had role play. wasnt quite successful. but nvm. anw, i got to know new ppl from other ugs. theres dannial from NCDCC from st hilda's and vignesh from st margrets NPCC. actually i should have known vignesh earlier just that i din know her name. but now i know le!

tuesday:

my sister made me pack and changed table with her. used from 2.30 till at night 9.45. of course got 1 hour break in between to watch goong. after cassmain was done she just left me to pack the whole room which was in a mess. but anw, we got our tables changed. and now i packed up all my stuff.

goong's last episode. very nice and touching. i will buy the cd lah. and i want to watch chong shang yun xiao also. yah.

today:

just woke up. tired. actually nothing much to do lah. will finish packing up my stuff and table for new books. get some things done and read.

not ready to talk about it yet. still upset and quite tense. dun feel normal.

2006-11-19T10:47:00.000+08:00

i just came back from breakfast with my mm at senja grand. so its decided that we wun be going to kusu island today and jasmine's birthday is tmr and not today.

i am still considering whether to link 6P people or not and decided that i shall still be involved in 6P stuff so i will still link them. asking them to link me is another problem altogether.

something very funny happened at the coffee shop just now. i was supposed to buy ~~milo ice~~ ice milo from the drinks stall and so. but i went to the drinks stall and there were so many people there fighting to buy drinks so i waited and waited and i waited for up to 10 minutes and i still haven ordered. i was like watching a show kinda thing how the people were fighting to order their drinks. and then my mm came and 2 minutes later we were off with our drinks. haha. so funny. i just cannot fight to order drinks.

later having dinner with sqdms and relatives. how is that possible? well, we are going to marina and i got my whole family realatives of my father side to go there so that i can be at both birthday parties at the same time. hahahaha. so funny. lalalala. i will be stuck between both. but i think i will be with sqdms more than aunties, uncles and their spouses. haha.

i am still reading dead secret. i want dead guilty.

me is happy.

2006-11-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

today is totally a slackish day. it doesnt even feel like a day. i woke up at 11.30, ate and read and slept again at 3.30. today is xiao mei's birthday! i sent her an sms and she called me si4 jie3! which is wrong because huishan is si4 jie3, me is fifth in line!

hahaha. tmr might be going to kusu island. then go to marina eat dinner with sqdms. steamboat. sijia wants everyone to wear skirt but i say no! lalala. i will not lah. so short time ask me how to find a presentable skirt. not say presentable skirt lah. even want me to find a skirt other than my NY skirt and NP u, is difficult liao lor! sigh. nvm.

my com just threatened to hang. tmr is jasmaine's birthday. not the NY jasmine. is my cousin's birthday. they having celebration but i will not be going. i go eat dinner in celebration of xiao mei's birthday with sqdms!

me and my sisters have a dream. we want to open a candy shop! me will still be a gynecologist but will spend money in investment for my sister's candy shop! i will have a place in case i lose my job as a doctor which is always possibly. seriously. of course if juliying really opens a clinic i will take that job doing something i want to do rather than take the second choice of joining my sister but in case she doesn't that leaves as safety net.

i watched goong and is now getting quite hooked on to it. i like the part when caijing say that even after 25 000 000 years when everything repeats itself in cycle, she will continue to love xin jun which is very very touching. i like her voice. abit hoarse abit gentle kind.

i want to read dead guilty. i am excited. =)

2006-11-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

emotions. they are a difficult thing to talk about. but i guess i interpret it this way:

one person's emotions can generally be divided into 3 levels. the superficial, make-some-difference, and the deep levels.

the superficial level of one's emotions is the most easy to move and change. for example you read a book and you get upset or happy over what is happening and that emotional change is a change in the superficial level. it is because it is not a kind of emotion pain or happiness that will leave a deep great impact on the person and it normally changes from day to day.

the second level of emotions. make-some-difference. this is a deeper kind of change in emotion that will stay for a longer period of time. usually 3-4 days of even longer. this is the kind of emotion change that will occur if you have a quarrel with your closest friend, your siblings, parents, or people you care for. this is a kind of emotion that will leave a difference in you, causing a something like a reminder that tells you: "do not do this again." or "it will hurt her and you do not want to do that."

the third level and also the deepest kind will leave great impact. an example will be saying you lost a loved one and it literally means lose and not just thinking you lost him or her. it is a change that will take years and years and years of recovery yet this kind of change cannot be healed. or to look more to the positive side, it is when you find your true love, someone to entrust your life to, and you feel happiness and that happiness sinks in.

emotions bring about pain and many claim that "time will heal all wounds". but honestly, i beg to differ. emotions can heal wounds, but not all wound can be healed completely. imagine losing your dearest kin. time will make you move on with life, it will teach you to carry on living for the living. but the pain will never cease to exist. it will remain there, just buried deep inside.

above is just my view of life and things and its is said simply just applying it to myself. it is not quoted, neither copied from another website or blog.

we had dalt today. wu shi throughout. i will aim to be a better shiwei and stop stopping my shitou from qishi-ing. haha. went to plaza with yuanhan, huishan and jiawen. ate at kfc, went to library to read and i finished one grave too many. now reading dead secret.

watched goong. read. got lost in my own world where i like to hide from pain. pain that i inflict on myself. i am making myself upset even though i know i have no need to be.

sok's in 305 too. she say one. she sms me then i call her. homestly, ytd i din notice her name. i thought she was in 306. nvm. shes a comfort to me. she will be there for me and help me take my waterbottle when i forget! seems just a few months ago that she was telling me: "next year go sec 3 who help you take your waterbottle?" now i dun have to worry! haha. thanks sok! i appreciate it! =)

2006-11-16T18:34:00.000+08:00

class allocation is out. and i dun like it. guess i am fated to be a squad loner for all 4 years bah. i will be in 305.

huiqing's in 305 too. zihui, liwen and me. someone i dun want to mention. sqdms should know who. but nvm. chi1 de2 ku3 zhong1 ku3, fang1 wei2 ren2 shang4 ren2. i shall be ren2 shang4 ren2!

305. i shall maintain an objective opinion about it. hais. really. what was i expecting?? with such bu4 shang4 bu4 xia4 de results. cannot go higher and cannot go lower. what did i expect to get? nope. i am not in the same class as any sqdm, it would be better if i were. nope. neither am i in the same class as chengxin or anyone i thought i wanted to be with. i am sad.

we went to school. did quite some things. ate ice cream at KAP. came home.

i am sad and upset!

2006-11-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

today is a useless day. i woke up at 9.00 took a book "one grave too many" and lied in my bed until 10. din go to school cos got no skirt!!!! bathed and played a stupid game with my sister on the computer.

ate breakfast, bread + chicken rice, drank lemon barley. =) was just finishing the pack of food when zhiyi called me to try to persuade me to go to school but i still din go. took the book and started reading until 2.45.

then i slept until 6.48. not bad ya. 4 hours straight. but tomorrow must go school le. if not very bad leh! xD

i am bored today. but i am lazy too. feel so mean. pangseh zhiyi and huishan. haha. they were the only 2 squadmates in school today! watching superstar now. looking for a girl i like. "no. 1818" i think.

later the chong1 shang3 yun2 xiao1 i wanna watch. my jiejie's macho man. and my pprrreeetttyy girl. i like ye4 xuan1.

playing games. =)

2006-11-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

today is a nice day. we had act!

i ate breakfast with mm and dd and i ate prawn mee soup with a cup of bua4 xio1 coffee! then i chi1 bao2 bao3 go to school for act.

act was nice! me was clove hitcher for first pitch and i was quite unhappy becos i wanna be pegger but i cannot always be pegger if not others cannot be pegger so i was clovehitcher. so i tie clove hitch lor. first pitch not bad only. 22 minutes ++ and i din see the end analysis maam gave us. i go see from zhiyi the next time i see her!

second pitch was friendly competition and we lost! although our quality was the best. all ticks! i was pegger and i got good pegging(maam say de)! haha. ego. nvm. anw our flag was straight and timing was 16.33.

so because we lost we had to do forfeit and sqdms wanted us to catwalk! nvm. catwalk better than pole dancing. so me and ju decided to be different. i go out first, then ju join me then we hold hands walk back! haha. so funny.

after act we went to coro buy ice cream. very nice de you know. i came back with jiawen on the bus and i told her that i wanted to take tuition and she gave me all sorts of ideas. maybe bah. maybe i really will take. must think about it first.

then i went to library and borrowed books! weird that i din borrow a single chinese book. all huishans influence. then i went to popular and i saw 3 interesting books. also mystery. written by Qiu Xiaolong. death of a red heroine. a loyal character dancer. when red is black. all about this inspector chen. i think i will like it. but all $17.80. maybe i buy second hand de. =) buy 1 first. if i dun like than say.

anw my dd doesnt like me to read "nonsense books" anything non-fiction to him is nonsense. maybe someone should convince him otherwise. hais.

tmr i can sleep! i will read the books i borrowed. =) me is happy.

2006-11-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

today is monday. and i had monday blues.

i am having trouble waking up. i woke up at 9. yesterday zhiyi say go to school at 10.30 and i promise to be there on time. so i went to beauty world to buy zippers and the auntie din have short zippers and so i bought long ones and i CUTTED them. and i reached school at 1015 and ZHIYI WAS LATE!!!!!!! she say cannot late and she was late! ##$$%^&*&%$@())(*&^%$">##$$%^&*&%$@())(*&^%$#@*@)&!!!!!

anw, my jie is sitting next to me now and she is insisting that i cannot have monday blues because i woke up at 9 and she woke up at 6.45. but who cares. i have monday blues because i say i have.

so i went to school and we din do what we were supposed to do. instead we did what we were not supposed to do. of course its sensitive issue now at this point in time so i wun say anything.

so i came at 5+++ and i saw my NEW WASHING MACHINE!!!! i want to be a washing machine. its so cool! it gets soaked in water day in day out and it spinns!!!!! you should see it! its cool. really. its a topload and its grey-ish white. i said it before but i must say it again. lalala.

i bought 2 pairs of earings from yinhwee and its for my jie. actually i din buy it. my jie did. lalala. one is a gingerbread couple and another is marshmallows.

tmr got act! 2 tent sets and 6 flag sets! they are all with me. if i dun go tmr (fall sick, stomach ache, vomit, fall down, accident, family matters, parents divorce, feel like going overseas, just plain lazy, overslept[highest possibility]) everybody die. lalalalala.

got amc tmr. ppl who pay money and forget, good luck! ppl who din pay money and go, stupid. ppl who pay money and go, its 0900-1000 at school! ppl who din pay, please cherish your time and sleep because ppl like me have to go to school. lalalalala.

i am happy. and free.

2006-11-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

zhiyi and jieqi came my house today. we were very efficient and we finished alot.

i slept at 3 yesterday because i watched qian4 nv3 you1 hun2 but i nvr watch finish because halfway i was too tired and so because of that i fell alseep but still i slept at 3am. i woke up early, very very tired but still, i woke up and after that i washed up and cooked campbell soup because mm and dd went to church and haven come back yet. and so i drank the soup and i made zhiyi wait for 10 minutes.

after i met zhiyi, we walk the pasar malam because jieqi haven reach yet and we walked to plaza to buy bread. and while queing at the NTUC, jieqi callled and we made her wait for 10 minutes. haha. so i brought them to my house and we ate. zhiyi eat long john sliver, me ate roti prata and jieqi ate bread.

then we started work and we finished more than what we expected. it went very well.

they left my house at around 5 something and later i came home and bathed again. then we went down to senja grand to eat dinner and we ate curry fish head. theres this cute jiejie at the coffee shop and shes very funny. she knows my family cos we always eat at the stall and she very nice to us de.

we walked the pasar malam again and walked one big round home. came home and watched bao4 xiao4 xin1 ren2 wang2 and the winner was quite expected although not who i hope for. then i wanted to blog but the internet wouldnt cooperate until now. my new washing machine is coming tmr. i am so excited.

going to school tmr. will meet sqdms at 10.30 tmr. i will not be late. i promise.

p.s. promises are meant to be broken.

2006-11-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

this morning we went alot of places. we as in me, my mm and my dd. we went to audiohouse and courts to look for a washing machine and we wanted a cheap one because the old one died.

also, my tv officially DIED. xD it can do magic. you on it hor, it will off itself after 4-8 seconds. and i have to watch tv on the small old yet steady tv. the small tv is as old(even older) as me. not bad ya? haha.

anw, we finally went to courts and found a nice top load one which can take up to 6.5kg of load. i wanted the 8.5 one but it cost $$$499 and its very very expensive. its greyish-white and its very cool. it will be sent to my hse on monday. anw, after we chose the washing machine, we went to look for TVs. but they were all flat tvs and flat tvs = expensive tvs = cannot buy and so we din buy a tv. so in the end, the washing machine cost $264 + $29.90(delivery charge) = $293.90. and after that, my mummy want to go to beautyworld and buy her concert costume and so i thought might as well buy materials for ---- and so i went but in the end we spent more than 30 minutes there and my dd has no more time to sleep and he got pissed.

see, my dd drove taxi ytd and he is going to drive today and he din sleep ytd so he has to sleep now but i wasted so much of his time and he was so pissed waiting he got even pisser. so he got a black face on the way back. xD

tmr is sunday. sqdms coming over to make ---. i know what i want to do liao. will tell them tmr.

owen wants to play thomas on the com liao. shall end here.

i am happy. =)

2006-11-10T16:25:00.000+08:00

i just finished washing 2 pairs of shoes.

dalt today. we learn how to bai3 the mandrin oranges. and jiao lian says to get dui lian for next year and next year is zhu1 nian2 so we shall give zhu1 peng2 gou2 you3 and zhu1 gou3 bu4 ru2! haha. dumb. my shi tou and i have good coordination and i am going to call her tonight to see if she has done her 30 pumpings. must lian4 leh! if not she drop the lion on me ar, i will cry leh!

after dalt we all went to bukit timah plaza to eat kfc! i ate my first banditto pockette! quite nice lah! and i started telling sqdms about my family stories. so funny. then we bacame you1 dang4-s and walked ard bukit timah plaza. yinhwee wants a planner for next year and i want a new bag. huishan and i also decided to go buy books on the 11th of dec! actually on 10th de. but 10th is a sunday and its not open! so we changed it to 8th but i am overseas and i forgot until i told huishan that i am going malacca on from the 4th to the 8th than she remind me! so stupid. so its changed to the 11th! ok decided.

then i came home and i wanted to wash my shoes and i decided to wash my meimei's as well and save:

water. do you know you use more water to wash 2 shoes seperately than to wash them together?
strength. see if i wash for my mother then i save strength for her!

so i wash and i wash. and in the end my sister's shoe got a tiny hole i think caused by me. and my half brown shoes became half brown of a much much much lighter shade. =) i might be going out later!

i want to buy a new bag.

2006-11-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

today i went ~~swimming~~ soaking. and it pleases myself to look at my ~~burnt~~ tanned shoulders. =D

i woke up the moment my sisters left for school which was at ard 9 and i had roti prata for breakfast. i watched ye4 guang1 shen2 bei1 until 10 and told myself i must rush for the 11 o'clock sun. and so i rushed, kept the clothes, packed the bed, packed my bag and i got into the swimming pool at choa chu kang at 1115. i soaked till 13.15 and i went to bathe and it pleased me, yes it did, to see my darker shoulders. =)

i went to mummy's office after having a nice tour on 307 which i am not so familar with and almost got lost. the bus uncle was really pissed with some sec school students and i dunno what school they came from. he took 3-5 minutes at a deserted bus stop to calm down before going again.

i went to mummy's office and slacked my time away and i came up with a new signature. its not really nice but its better than the last one. and after that i actually wanted to go with mm to boon lay de but in the end didnt because one taxi = 4 passengers and there were 5 of us there and so to save money i came home with my sister. anw i had no business there. but i realised that i left my wallet and my hp at my mummy's office so luckily auntie koo was still there. she got my wallet for me and i met her and we went to plaza together, with my sister. after that we on our way home walked the pasar malam and i bought a hard handphone cover. its blue =)

theres dalt tmr. i will be tired. hais. but i am happy. =)

2006-11-08T18:28:00.000+08:00

today is wednesday. my sqdms came over to my hse and we slacked. cooked maggie mee, watched finding nemo, played harry potter. we slacked my whole day away. and my hse is messy. sijia cannot wash bowls properly and yinhwee can cook really nice noodles. today is a happy day.

tmr cassmain has school and i am free and so i will go ard looking for courses to sign up for because i promised yinhwee to make my good use of this holiday and cong1 shi2 myself and not waste my youth and the way to do that is to take up courses that i dun usually take and maybe get something out of it.

i changed my links page and instead of going vertical they are horizontal now. but i have to ask soggy if she can help me with my archives. cos they are still vertical.

i shall slack my tmr away. anyway, i am now in the mood to slack. i want to go buy books. and a new bag! talking about holidays, i think they grow worse and worse by the year. my mm has no more time to go shopping with me and my sisters and although holidays are still holiday and they still feel holiday-ish, they're just not the same anymore. :(

if anyone buys ye4 guang1 shen2 bei1, be sure to watch disc 14 and 15. in disc 14, around 30.00 minutes, there will be this line thats really funny. and in disc 15, the most touching part is when lingzhi and her mother xiang1 ren4. i like lingzhi. shes very loyal. and cute. haha.

i made a new friend yesterday on msn. actually i've seen her before but i din really know her. she's lydia's guzheng friend. her name is chengxin. haha. shes very cute. really. potential sec 3 classmate. haha. we will know on the 17th.

my ankle hurts. i thought the last time was worse than this but this is actually worse than the last time. if it doesnt get better by next monday, mummy will bring me to a chinese doctor.

i am slacking.

2006-11-07T14:06:00.000+08:00

just came back from school. having really sore hands and skin. haha. pegging was fun!

had act today. pitched flag throughout most of the act. our timing improved alot alot. from 28.16 to 20.48! very great improvement can! me was lasher for first 2 pitches. then i was pegger for last pitch. but honestly i prefer being pegger. here's my timing:

1st pitch:(lasher)
target: 30.00
orientate: 2.20
roundlash: 4.13
clove hitch: 14.38
whole pitch: 28.16

2nd pitch:(lasher)
target: 27.00
orientate: 2.13
roundlash: 3.41
clove hitch: 10.09
whole pitch: 22.02

3rd pitch:(pegger)
target: 21.45
1st peg: 1.50
2nd peg: 3.27
3rd peg: 4.20
ABU: 4.31-6.02
whole pitch:20.48!!!

it was very good improvement ya? and they were all 3-men flag! but i think i should speed up on my ABU. 2 minutes is too long!!!

then sqdms actually want to come my hse de but they decided not to so i am here blogging. i got a blister during 3rd pitch and i broke that blister while pulling guy-line with sijia. so now my hand hurts.

i want to sleep!

anw i just went to class blog and everyone's typing er, touching posts and tags which i dun want to read. not that i am unfeeling or something but i just cant produce such a post so i decided to avoid it by not posting or tagging. and i think sok should make everyone admin. afterall we are a class and we should decide on it all together. =D

i am painful. my ankle hurts and my finger and hands are sore!

2006-11-06T11:50:00.000+08:00

i feel stupid. and dumb. i fell again. and this time it was chasing after the bus. my left ankle hurts. and my jie says i should get another guard.

i finished watching ye guang shen bei yesterday. the ending was dumb like all endings but i still like the show. its very nice.

today i pulled myself up to go to school at 9 just to meet deborah and give her her calender and meet ju to give her yunghian's watch and also to see what sub allocation i got. so i went to school and gave deborah her calendar and i saw that i got into 3 sciences and i gave ju yunghian's watch and i went home. i spent 1 hour 15 minutes on journey and 30 minutes in school.

on the way home, i ran after the bus on the overhead bridge but i missed it and so i took 67 to chase after the 171 and when the 67 won the 171, i alighted and wanted to take the 171. but the 171 din see me and almost went away. lucky i ran and he saw me but i "kiak" my ankle and now its painful. but luckily i got the bus.

now my ankle hurts but its not as bad as the last time but my jie says i should get another guard and i think i should too.

theres act tmr. after that got present making! yay! =D

lalala.

2006-11-05T10:59:00.000+08:00

din blog yesterday... you know why? because everytime i decide to blog, the internet has to die on me and when i get so pissed i decide not to blog and watch tv, the internet becomes fine. so i decided to carry on watching tv. so i din blog.

this is a detailed what happened on thursday 02/11/06:

that night was our choral night. i went to school in the morning at say 10.00 and we practiced. it was quite fine other than some parts me became bored and din take it seriously and blah blah blah. after that ard 11.45, i went with estella, joey and zihui to KAP to have lunch. i ate mc spicy and on the way there, joey started ignoring estella and estella decided to ignore joey and so they took each other as though they were invisible. hahah. so funny. when we walked into KAP i saw stephanie maam and she was alone until later she left when i was about to leave.

so we ate and after we finished went back to class to change for full dress rehersal. and during full dress rehersal, shihui forgot her lines!!!! so scary! and i couldnt prompt her because i forgot her lines as well!!! so we took quite long before we finished that scene. so scary.

then we had dinner and i went to coronation with heeai and joey. we ate laksa. then we came back to school and changed again into full dress and i had to put on make-up. i wanted yiwei to help me but she was busy so i waited for her to help me. during that time, i was wearing my shoes and you know what??? my leg started cramp-ing. and it hurt like siao. damn it. luckily i haven put on anything yet because i teared and if i had anymake up on my face it probably would have ran. joey was really nice and helped me with my cramp and it bacame fine after awhile although still hurts abit. yah. then i went to wash my hands, gel my hair in the toilet because i met lynn and huifun gelling their hair and i er, went back to the LT to put makeup. yiwei put everything except the lipstick and for the lips, credit goes to lydia.

for that night's show, not many squadmates came and jieqi came really early. anw, when the show started, i went in to watch 207's under one roof put up by our second half and they did really well! they rocked! =D after that i went back to audi and ppl started taking lots of photos and surprisingly some wanted to take with me. wenqi said i look shuai. and after that we went into audi backstage early and went into the wings quite early as well and we waited there. during that time i was really nervous. but someone said i was from drama, and there was nothing to be scared or worried about. i will be fine. and the show started. i went out and saw many ppl i knew but i din give way and the show went quite well other than the er, meet the parent scene where i gave funny lines.

"its ok april. we'll leave this place together, i din know you had such an unreasonable father, we'll leave this place together"

it sounded really weird. and during the solve the problem scene, the bench went in late and heeai, joey and suesin went out late. but nvm lah. small mistake. after that we finished the whole show and i swear i felt so relieved. mummy and dd fetched me home and on the way i lost the flower lynn gave me. the only flower for the whole show!!!

this is a detailed what happened on friday 03/11/06:

i met a new friend. his name is ding jie and he is a guy.

in the morning we had dalt and i fall out once. and after that jiao lian gave a debrief like thing and we will be having a test somewhere in december. then we got back our wallets and we were dismissed and i realised that cassmain got a 100 for her maths which means i lost the bet i made with her wich means a $150 gone! and i started screaming. and we finally went to change. after that we went to bukit timah plaza the kfc and bought food before going to sijia hse. we played card and she served us this tapioca fries thingy which i later took back to sell cos it din taste that nice.

and i was late for fund-raising. but we rocked and we got about $300++. and during that time i met a crazy man who has alot of money who spent $32.50 at our stall buying lots of flowers. his name is ding jie and he is a friend of sok and siewying.

i started going crazy at the busstop and when sok pass me her rose so that she could take of her jacket, i pass it to ding jie and asked him to propose to sok. haha. i took 171 back with bernice and reached home at ard 10 something. i took 920 back.

yesterday:

i spent my whole yesterday watching ye4 guang1 shen2 bei1 and i really like lingzhi. she is so, nice, loyal and i dunno what. but i really like her alot. and xiao yao also not bad but i like zhang1 ting2 more than xiaoyao although when xiaoyao stood up to admit her mistake she was really brave.

in the night ard 2 something, dd came home with late night supper and i went out to eat abit of satay bee hoon. i would have ate more if i werent so tired.

i spent one whole hour blogging. not bad ya? haha. i am lazy.

2006-11-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

post number 50!!!!!! hahaha. i have been updating regularly! =D

din blog ytd. came back too late and was tired.

yesterday was choral night performance. it was ok. not that good but not that bad either. good is that people keep telling me that i am very shuai although i think i look very normal. but bad is that i got some lines wrong. haha. behind the scenes i was like so nervous. what if i forget or if shihui forget?? then we will both chu1 chou3. then dunno who say things like nvm, you will be fine de and i dunno. i just was very nervous. but anw i think it went quite well and Mr Tang said "well done" to me! i was happy. Mrs Koh also got say well done! then ppl who saw it alot say i did not bad but i dunno how it went. i was too nervous. there was this funny auntie after the show she saw me and point point and laugh laugh smile smile and all. haha. so funny. dd and mm fetched me home and i lost the rose lynn gave me! the ONLY rose i got!!!

today we had fund-raising and 207 rocked! we got $300++ and it was alot can! today's show was not bad lah and jinqing was very very very cute! haha. me is tired and i want to go sleep liao. =D

its 0000. i am tired.

2006-11-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

i slacked my today away again. i am now like chi1 bao3 shui4, shui4 bao3 chi1. lazing away, wasting the time of my precious youth.

tmr is choral night! i hope it comes fast and goes fast! i have been nagging at both my sisters to go study and they wun listen to me. they so bad. both tmr also got exam but they like dun care like that. later tmr dunno how to do how???

and i washed my shoes today. the one i dirtied yesterday during act. talking about it i am aching all over. esp my hands. =S. but i feel like pegging. i mean i like pegging. it brings me great pleasure, joy and pride to see myself peg so fast! ha! i wanna get into CT '08! =D

today i watched ye4 guang1 shen2 bei3 again and i heard a nice and touching sentence which i hope i will be able to find someone who will say it to me. the guy, zheng4 feng1 said, no in fact wished, yuan4 dai4 ta1 shang1, dai4 ta1 tong4, dai4 ta1 bing4, dai4 ta1 si3. and he wished her happiness. so nice right. i wanna watch that show now. i want to finish watching it.

tmr is choral night and i just invited my whole family to come watch me perform. now thinking about it, it might not have been the best right move. nvm. i dun care. no, maybe i do. aiyah, i dun know.

i got back my report book yesterday. i got 70.67% in overall. i am happy. 70.67% it may not be alot compared with other people's 75% or what but i am happy. its not being happy-go-lucky, but i have put in my best effort and this is the result and i should be happy with my own results. shouldn't i?

haha. i am happy.

2006-10-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

we had act today. i woke up in the morning at 6.30 and went with dds' car and slept in the car cos i was feeling very upset that i had to wake up so early.

then i ate dinner with dd and mm and i reached school at 8. the minute i reached school i got an sms saying "where are you?" from ju and i got scared. maybe i got the time wrong and i was late!!!

but i wasnt so i met up with them in the canteen. we were late for act by ard 5 minutes i think.

i pitched flag twice and had to leave early cos i had to take report book and got choral night. this might sound ego but i am very happy with the speed i am pegging at. though i have to say my lashings very slow but i peg fast! =D

i got back my report book and i got 70.67%. i am happy with it. remarks were written by li laoshi and she said the normal thing about me shan4 yu2 fa1 yan3, yuan4 yi4 biao3 da2 kan4 fa3, kind of thing. basically quite good. =) i got promoted to sec 3 =) although i hen3 bu4 xiang4 but i keep acting as if i was not promoted. xD

sqms and i went to yuan hans' hse after going coronation and we slacked ard and i came home after yuanhan's hse. i lin2 yu3 from the busstop to yuanhan's hse and now i am sniffing and cold. =S.

i came home, watched tv, and ate dinner. after my mother came home and off-ed the tv because my sisters had to study, i went to sleep and i slept until now. my sisters and everybody was very bu4 shuang3 that i get to sleep from 7 till 10.30 and in between keep trying to break my beautiful sleep. they are just jealous.

anw, during that sleep i had a dream. a very nice one that i rmb quite clearly. it goes that me, ju, zhiyi and jieqi went overseas on a holiday to china. it was either china or taiwan but i was quite sure it was china. then the place was really really huge and there were big buildings everywhere making the place look cheena and yet majestic. we were crossing this bridge and there were nice red big lanterns hung up on the side of the bridge. i rmb me and jieqi keep taking photos on the bridge and ju keep helping us take. i was feeling quite ke3 xi1 cos i din bring a camera with me or somthing like that. the buildings at the back were big and they were really cool. then before anything could happen i got awoken by my mother who was vacumming the floor. so saddening. i want to know what the china in my dreams look like. =(

haha. i hope i get back in this dream tonight. though i know its not quite possible. haha.

2006-10-30T16:20:00.000+08:00

i slacked my today away. what do expect from someone whos on a mental holiday?

i woke up at 9. then i went ~~exercising~~ jogging. then i came home cooked myself something to eat, then started watching tv. i watched ye guang shen bei from 10.30 till around 15.50 when huishan called me to help her print something and i helped her print and now its 16.18 and my dd is home so i cannot watch tv anymore!

i am going to watch choral night performance later! meeting huishan at 6. this is the plan...

16.30- bathe
16.50- get ready, pack up and wear socks
17.00- leave the house
17.15- reach library
17.25-17.30- leave library
18.00- reach school.

in between i will catch something to eat. afterall i haven eaten anything since 10.00 this morning.

=D

2006-10-29T14:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday was class ~~chalet~~ BBQ. <3s. i woke up at 6.45 ytd morning bathed, went to school in dds car and reached school at 7.45. waited for zhiyi with chris and kai qi and went into the audi. listened to speech by mdm mak, speech by mrs Yu-Foo, and talk by ms wendy chua. she really is quite good a speaker. she got my attention and told the audience about her jing1 li4. i think she would be quite a nice person to talk to, really. then we had break and i ate abit + drank coffee and we went back in.

i should stop drinking coffee, i think i will get addicted to it and later i will have yellow teeth.

then we listen to the "reflections" by our seniors and some of shuqun primary school people. then the seminar ended.

me and zhiyi went to bukit timah food centre to eat and then went to IMM and got a ribbon back for zhiyi's friend at daiso with a pair of socks for me and then slacked around and walked around and went back. i went to school and zhiyi went home.

i waited at hci for lynn and yixian. lynn's mother fetched us to huifun's house and we reached there quite early. then yixian and i walked up and down huifun's neighbourhood and tested the hearts and minds of seveners and realised that out of tianhui, jasmine, shihui and liwen, only shihui and jasmine had nice hearts because they bothered to stop their father's cars and ask if we wanted a lift up. haha.

then we changed into costumes and my back started hurting and i took some photos and yiwei looked really good. then we BBQed. i must add that sheena and i made good chicken wings.

i ate a marshmallow which i din quite like but i like the chocolate. i only ate the chocolate because huifun made it and i must give her face. after that got back into costumes and took another class photo before going home. yiwei won best costume award. 6 of us, bernice, yiwei, yixian, sok and siewying walked down to the bus stop together and yixian left first.then sok and siewying and bernice and me, leaving yiwei all alone waiting for her father.

then when i was reaching plaza, i called yiwei to see if she was safe and she said she was but after that, she smsed back and asked "did you call me just now?" and i said yes i did and i asked her "didn't you answer?" she said yes she did but she didn't know who called her.

then i went to mac to wait for my mummy and we ate there before going home. i bathed and slept immediately after i got home. i slept on the master bed because dd went to drive taxi.

this morning i woke up at 11.45 and went jogging at 12.15. then i met mummy downstairs and i pei2 her to NTUC to buy groceries. then i came home at 1 to eat my breakfast. haha. breakfast at 1. then i came blogging and thats what i am doing now.

2006-10-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday was last day of school. we had the best last day of school. we got scolded. -.- i walked into class and that very moment i got 5 notes. make me feel so loved. sheila's note held the most meaning to me. thank you sheila, i am touched. really. i guess term 3 was the turning point of our friendship. sitting in a group actually changed our perception of each other, from good to bad and i really must say, sheila is nice.

we din play alot of games yesterday and we became vases during level closure but i guess we touched our teachers to an extend. esp ms yeo and ms koh. we got scolded during break and got banned from our class but we want to rmb the good and not the bad right? so i wun say much. after that was farewell for mdm mak and i was touched, almost wanted to cry but didn't because i was with squadmates and dun want to cry in front of them.

after that we had choral night and it lasted until 5 something. then i met up with sqdms and went home. i used the com, compile, finish up proposal and i slept at 3. because of a stupid table(as in the one in word document). damn it i am still pissed can.

this morning, i woke up at 7.30, printed out proposal and went to my mothers' office to finish printing cause my printer showed signs of death. then i put everything in the file and i went to school at ard 9.30. met jiawen on the bus and saw sijia but she was walking so slowly she missed 171. then we slacked ard, eat mac, and went for live shoot.

live shoot was weird. we shot only once. and the gun was oily. haha. after that, i didnt take the school bus to cck interchange, instead i went with huishan to take the straight bus back. me take 975, huishan take 172.

i went to plaza to look for my costume for tmr's bbq and i found masks. and a sword. so i abandoned the face paint idea and decided on a cape, a mask and i would bring a sword. i came home and slacked until now.

tmr's plans.
0800-go to school for the seminar
1300-leave school with zhiyi and go to IMM daiso to buy the huge bowtie i lost.
1600-meet up with the ppl frying rice at huifn's house and go with them to huifun's house to no.1, dress up and no.2, maybe help out abit.
2000-2200-i will go home and blog about it.

yes, thats it.

2006-10-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

today was a nice day. i played alot of games with 207 and watched the wonderful powerpoint made by tian hui i think. and we watched "The Mighty" which is a very nice show.

we played er whacko, jacobs ladder of something like this and we played hide- and-seek and i missed winning the game by 1 minute. just one minute and i could have won. and the worst thing id that i was hiding in such an open place with liuyi and yiwei.

and then we played and played and i read abit and i finished reading xue3 ke1 today. the "xue3 zhong1 zhi1 yu4, bi4 neng2 nai4 han2" one. so sad the story. *sniffs sniffs*

and then i went for present making and i went home at 6.15.

i came home and almost missed my stop because i was reading. lucky i recognised joleen's netball junior who alights at the same stop as me and she walked passed me to get off the bus and so i went off the bus with her. =D

i ate cai4 fan4 for dinner and i am very busy today. i need to go do work.

2006-10-24T17:43:00.000+08:00

i wasted today away as usual.

i finished reading wang4 fu1 ya2 yesterday night. IN THE TOILET!!! and why is that so?? because my family was all sleeping in the master bed-room and everyone wanted to sleep and i din want to go out alone cos it was scary and my daddy wanted the light off and so i escaped into the toilet to finish reading the book. only the last chapter though. i finished it in less than 5 minutes. the speed at which i read amaze myself.

this morning i woke up at 9.30 and got up and i started writing messages to my classmates. afterall, tmr would be family day and thursday would be last day. must biao3 shi4 yi1 xia4. and may i inform the class here that the card each of you will get is a part of your maths notice board and you must keep it properly and zhen1 xi1 it because of its great significance. its unfair that i bring home the whole maths notice board so i want to share it with all of you and that explains the holes made by staples.

i realised that it is not that very easy to write a message to everyone. its damn hard can. i dun know what i want to say to some and i got alot to say to others and that explains the difference in length of the messages. and joey is special cos she will be getting a message in purple. and i got not enough paper so, jasmine will get a special message on a special piece of paper. afterall jasmine gave great influence to me. real reason is because i din know until i reached register no. 28 and i had to choose one special person from 29-36 and i chose jasmine. jasmine, you must feel honoured.

throughout i keep side-tracking and go on to read my book xue3 ke1. xue3 ke1 = xue3 zhong1 zhi1 yu4 = jade in the snow. theres this sentence in the book which says "xue3 zhong1 zhi1 yu4, bi4 neng2 nai4 han2" and its very inspiring. at least to me and xue3 ke1, it is. and this book has a very sad ending. xue3 ke1 died. =( and i keep having to tell myself, 1) jomain, you are great, you read really fast. you finished 104 pages in less than 1 hr and 30 minutes. and between this time i keep having to force myself back to writing messages because my liang2 xin1 tells me, if anyone of my classmates dun get this, they will be sad.

owen is great man. he can watch the same show 4 times a day, over and over again without getting bored. worst of all he is still engrossed in it. thats what he did. man.

yesterday, my sister had to force owen to go pee before he sleep. she told him this "tonight you 'shhh shhh' (pee) on my bed, i ' shh shh' on you ar!" and he went to pee immediately. so funny. haha.

i am doing work. i feel so busy although holidays are coming. my sad sister is sad. my first day of holiday is her first day of exams. hahaha. i am gloating.

2006-10-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

school today was slack. seriously. there was nothing important other than checking of SA results. but i got to read.

i finished 180-17 pages today up till now of wang4 fu1 ya2 and i am going to finish it by today. although its really very difficult to read, after all i am not accustomed to reading from right to left and vertically instead of horizontally but anw, the story is too interesting to stop half-way and stoping half-way is not what jomain does.

i went home after school because i thought squadmates not staying back but they were staying back and i brought the -------- back with me. so i think they couldnt do anything. i went home with yixian and i took 170 because we were taking it together with zihui who is going back to malaysia for her grandfathers 90th birthday. and then i showed yixian the general direction i was going to walk in to reach home and i think it scared her cos 1. there were construction works, 2. it was almost a road that was cutting through the forest, 3. it was deserted. so i think she got worried for my safety and she sent me and sms saying something like "are you home safetly already?" or something like that. haha.

i told mrs koh that i was unable to give her the essay by today and so i think if they sent it to the publisher today, my piece will not be in it. but still i will finish up that narrative and give it to her and if it doesnt get into the Montage she can 1. keep it or 2. return it to me.

i came home and i started eating and reading and i am going to finish the book i very proudly say.

2006-10-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

today i woke up at 8.00. and so i took a bath and started writing my narrative after very very long writer's block. then i ended up with 1 page of story before i left for woodlands to meet squadmates. i ate chicken rice while squadmates queued up and waited for char kway teow and chao xia mian and i finished eating when they started.

then we went to library and started discussing about proposal again and i am supposed to do dimensions for ---. i borrowed 3 books which i must say isnt very appealing to me now because all i can think of is proposal and my montage story which i haven finished. i am halfway through and i will bring it to school tmr and ask Mrs Koh for an extension till wed.

tmr i will stay back in school.

2006-10-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

hahaha. so i din go to that ill-mannered cousin's birthday party. but that is only because i spent the whole afternoon at the tailor's choosing materials to use for my mother's kindergarten's graduation concert costumes.

i have good colour combination. the clothes i choose are nice. my jie agrees. then we went to raffles hospital for dinner, then went to kallang for a buddhist event.

i got alot to write about.

these 2 things should have been said on friday but i didn't.

1) i got back maths paper and on it, the teacher who marked qn 7 who i dunno who she/he is wrote on my paper,

"i'm impressed with your honesty. Say hi to me the next time you see me."

yeah. if it was me i would have been impressed too. afterall my own honesty impressed myself. i dun know how i was willing to return 2 marks to the teacher so easily but i know, i couldnt have lived with a false mark and i dun understand, really i dun, how someone can. i would let guilt kill me. really. being the rigid person i am, principles and rightness rules my life. i live my every second thinking, what would your conscience say if you did this or what would you think of yourself if you didn't do this??? wow. these thinking leads me to where i am now. if one day, i really go far away from the right route i am supposed to go, please, remind me that i once was such an honest person and wake me up because i am now proud of who i am.

2) ms yeo will be leaving nanyang next year. i want to wish her luck. i feel lucky. out of her precious 4 years she spent in NY, i had 2 years of her teachings which made sense but i have to admit there were some which i din fully agree with. i feel, of course, a sad sense in me because she is leaving but she feels that its better if she taught in a neighbourhood school, what else can i comment about??? all i can ask is if she will leave me a way to stay in contact with her constantly. and that is uninclusive of her handphone number because i cannot possibly call her every now and then and say... i dun even know what i want to say to her but... argh. i am messed up!

i finished reading yan1 suo3 zhong4 lou3 already. we shall call it book 50 here. and i finshed xin1 yue4 ge2 ge4 which will be called book 49 ard 2 years ago. i made an analysis of both these books and i am going to type it here.

Book 49 and 50 are both qiong2 yao2 books belonging to a series called the yong3 heng2 series. these 2 book are more special as compared to other books in qiong2 yao2 series and you will know why if you read on. these 2 books, they have romance in them, but what is different id that these 2 kind of 'love' portrayed are more unaccepted by not only their families, their closest people, but also unaccepted by the customs then.

49, it talks about the story of a princess who lost her parent due to war. she was saved together with her brother by a man, a general to be exact, and this man is old enough to be her father. this man, he has a wife and 2 children already, his oldest son being of an age even older than the princess but yet, the princess fell in love with the general. this love between the guy who is much older than the girl was unaccepted by the people then and the both main characters died in the end. but it was a beautiful death as said in the book.

50, it is almost similar to 49, only the love was unaccepted not because of the character's age but because of their status. the guy wanted to marry a widow who was also his sister-in-law. and it was wrong then because of the "zhen1 jie2" a widow must have then. "zhen1 jie2" meaning i marry you now, i will be yours forever till i die. this kind of thinking, the woman's own sense of responsibility refrained her from "si1-ben1-ing" with the guy. and this made everything very complicated and irritating because the reader is almost dying from pain that the girl goes through and yet they dun get together when they had the chance to. but in the end they did have a happy ending which i thought wasn't quite that good.

so these 2 are different in terms of the kind of unaccepted love but yet similar in the pains that both couples had to go through to get that acceptance. these books are almost painful to read because they feel as if they were "jiao3-ing" your heart but you feel so relieved when they end up good, together.

i am going to start on the article for Montage now like i promised.

2006-10-21T10:36:00.000+08:00

i feel very dui4 bu4 qi3 my squadmates. every time they meet i will have something on.

yesterdays' dinner was nice. i reached the place at 7.35 and we were late! and later when we went in, the restaurant was only half-filled. dinner started at 9. -.- do you know how much impact bu4 shou3 shi2 people have on wedding dinners??? i am so pissed. hai my gastric fa1 zuo4. the bride was very fat and the groom was very old. i know its mean but its fact.

we had er, crispy roasted chicken, sliced abalone with mushrooms, noodles, steamed prawns in bamboo basket, the starting dish of every wedding dinner, fish (garoupa), and scallop with lots and lots of veggie. the food was nice. we had yam and pumpkin for desert.

the waiter who was serving my table was so shuai!!! he was really patient too you know. afterall, he could stand my ill-mannered cousin's impoliteness and troublesome-ness so he must be quite patient. and he had a jin1 ren2 he4 (all in) feel.

i ate lots of chocolate before the dinner started. the chocolate was nnniiiiccceeee.

i am going to start writing the essay for Montage later maybe at my aunt's hse for which i am going because of that ill-mannered cousin's birthday party which my mum says i must go. he is an idiot can. he is the only cousin who is what, 7 years my junior and calls me by my name??? and he cant even pronounce my name properly. jomin jomin jomin. what the hell. i dun like him. alot alot. and i have to attend his birthday party. this is like so sad.

i am going to eat my breakfast now. i am hungry and angry. pissed.

2006-10-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

today was not that good a good day.

morning 2-7 discussed alot of things. it actually set me out thinking how true are people's heart when they actually say something and how much do they mean it?? nvm. i have my own thinking and it may seem quite cynical so i wun fa1 biao3 my thinking here.

then i keep thinking, what is good and what is bad and how exactly do you differentiate good from bad and bad from good. oh, i am doing too much thinking.

then i slept for 10 minutes before we went for the fruit hunt. then we missed the sec 3 project viewing and later we played dingbats and practiced half a time of drama.

then i went home with yixian before i left her at the busstop to take 171. then i came home, got ready and bathe, changed until now i am waiting for my sister and owen to finish bathing. =D

wedding dinner later. i will be sitting near the VIP table. so excited. right.

2006-10-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

i am happy.

today was just PW briefing, and i think i want to sign up for SMP(science mentorship programme or something like that) and do either the defence one with yinhwee or do with ju either the bio one or the weather one. later they all decide dun do i die...

then we had choral night practice and we thought of singing mai ham song like a choir but our suggestion was immediately rejected by huifun who can really imitate very very well. melissa aslo disagreed so in the end we din do it. i read alot and most of the time and estella passed me the slip and this is what it said.

Dear Jomain,

Montage needs contribution on National Education themes.
It can be essays, narratives, poem, opinions.
Suggested ideas- homeland security; inter-racial relations, education.
School themes like- your feelings about school, your uniform, etc.

Please take your time to write and these themes and submit your pieces to me next week. (Monday)
Thank You
Mrs Koh

this is so unlike me. how can i possibly be chosen to write an essay in english??? i am like those kind of people who will write nonsense that even i think sounds nonsensical. but nevertheless, i shall put my best in it. the 2 topics that hit me are homeland security and uniforms. but i shall see first. i shall go to the heritage corner tmr and look up the history of nanyang uniform.

drama was -.- mr tang insists that i look gay. and he told me to put a pen in my pocket to look more male. hahha.

present making was successful. we finished quite alot of work which of course i will not name. but it was really good. we put our hearts into it and zhiyi can really draw. she mo2 fang3 the font until very nice.

we as in me and my family went to turf city giant to buy stuff but couldnt find anything. so we went to causeway point and we bought glass things that i shouldnt touch cos i am 'the breaker'.

i came home, bathed and watched fairy of the chalice and i like zhang1 ting2 and the gong1 zhu3 in the show. they are both very cute people.

then i managed to convince my computer to connect to internet and now i am blogging. xD

i am very happy.

2006-10-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

today i came up with a fantastic idea for present making. of course i wun post about the idea but i will say that my idea was good.

we went for the singapore ~~binaele~~ bee-na-le thing which i dun know how to spell and the exhibits were good. they were un-understandable but good. i walked around with yiwei and we got alot of understanding from un-understandable art pieces. i carried Ms Koh's bag for her cos she hurt her arm and how can she carry her own backpack when she hurt her arm so i carry for her and i am very proud of it. thank you very much.

i came back at 1.30 and thought of ideas for present making and i thought of something. and i think it is a good idea and 38 maams accepted it so i was happy. so we were very fast and we decided like 3-5 minutes after we sat down. as maams say, "deltarians are very decisive"

we went to beauty world to buy materials and got quite somethings back. after that, we came back just as other companies were going out. as the saying goes "xiong1 you3 cheng2 zhu2". i think this years present will go very well.

i am working on it.

mummy bought ye4 guang1 shen2 bei1 for me. =D

2006-10-17T17:13:00.000+08:00

i really feel like killing my sister.

she spoiled the tortoise sok gave me for birthday present!!!!

i feel like killing her.

2006-10-17T16:31:00.000+08:00

i din go to school today.

i am sick! and i sound like a frog(thats how yunghian would describe it.)

i spent my day happily. i woke up at 8.45(i think) and ate breakfast. then i watched tv. then i packed my room up. and i threw away everything that was still in my room. then i read the books i borrowed from school library because i couldn't watch tv because my sis was studying. then i watched tv while my sis bathed and i finished the whole set of xiao2 bao3 yu3 kang1 xi1. yes i finished it.

today is a happy day.

2006-10-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

today just passed like that. yah just like that.

i dragged myself to school early in the morning. very very unwillingly. whats there to do in school anyway??? so i convince myself must take class photo with class if not will very yi2 han4 de. so i forced myself out of my nice comfy bed, look at my sister still in bed(PSLE marking day) and thought: "nvm, when i holiday that time, you just started your exam!!!" so i got to school after i bathed and all. then i realised it was a bad day.

why was it a bad day???

1)it was a hazy day
2)it was a sleepy day
3)both my sisters got to sleep in.

yes. so i was a bad day but it din turn out that bad anyway.

after much thinking, considering and wastage of brain juices, i have come to the conclusion that people generally can have 3 types of reaction to haze.

1) they are very very unhappy about it coming because it (means) :
a. no outdoor activities
b. harms the health
c. makes the whole place stink
d. is very not nice to live in

2) however, on the other hand, we have weird people who likes it because it (means) :
a. no outdoor activities
b. more in-door activities
c. increases the chances of us getting a free holiday like in 1997
d. they just like problems arising for the country because they are weird

3) lastly, they can be fickled-minded like me because :
a. no outdoor activities and i dun like outdoor activities
b. more indoor activities like watching tv
c. increases the chances of us getting a free holiday like in 1997 and i want that holiday
d. but i dun want my squadmates who are easily affected by the haze to get affected
e. i dun want my country to have problems arising
f. i cannot decide if i want the haze or not.

back to my day. i went to school and we took class photo. and i swear that will be the only time you see me sitting like an idiot. i got back chinese and geography today. geography was satisfying, chinese not that bad but not that good either.

at the moment, my results are as follows:

Language Arts: i dunno
Chinese: 64.25
Maths: 83
Science: havent seen the paper yet
Integrated Humanities: History(25) + Geography(37) = 62

i am happy with my current results. really. dun ask me why i can take it so easily, i dun know either. but i am very unhappy that my chinese compo got more than 5 cuo4 bie2 zi4. and today, the teacher who jiang2 jie3 the ying4 yong4 wen2 was really cute! i wouldn't mind her as chinese teacher. not that i dun like li lao shi, shes very nice too but i think the ying4 yong4 wen2 teacher is really very funny.

i came home at 2.30-3.00 cooked myself curry maggi mee + 5 hotdogs. and i added too much water until my curry doesnt taste like curry anymore. but i watched tv and polished my boots and badges and then after i finished, jiawen called and said: "jomain, no need to prepare u for tmr." and i really felt like smacking something.

i watched tv until 7 o'clock and had dong1 fen3 for dinner and the fishball tasted awful.

i am sniffing but i dun know why. i know, the haze the haze.

the haze made me sniff??? sounds ilogical to me.

2006-10-15T14:36:00.000+08:00

today was a day relatively better than yesterday but not very much better. the only reason i am here is because i cannot watch tv because of the reasons listed below:

1) i watched tv since 8.30 this morning which is for 6 hours already.
2) my tv is showing signs of breaking down
3) everytime i on the tv, 2 very familar people(my 2 sisters) will leave their books and watch tv with me which is bad because they are going to have exam soon.

yes. so i woke up at 8.30am and watched tv till now and there is nothing i should have to say about watching tv so i am not going to say anything.

i am planning to delete my tagboard. there is nobody tagging and its dead so i am thinking of deleting it. but how will people leave a mark if i delete it. so i will not delete it. people who read my blog please tag to keep my tagboard alive.

i thought about a very very lame joke yesterday. there are 2 answers to this question depending on the language used to ask it.

if a cat and a parrot got married and they reproduced what would you get???

or

如果猫和鹦鹉结了婚还生了孩子，孩子会是什么？

i am so lamed out by my own joke. the answer to the first one is carrot.

second one not as funny is 猫头鹰 .

hahah.

my meimei just brought back her class photo two days ago and i saw her friend and it a guy and he is damn shuai!!! too bad i am older than him by 3 years. but he has 3 older brothers. xD but my dumb meimei had to tell him that i said that he was shuai and in the end, she po4 huai4 le wo3 zai4 shuai-ge mian4 qian2 de xing2 xiang4. really. she just had to tell him and spoil my beautiful image.

sigh i want to go sleep le. afternoon nap. i dun take afternoon naps but i am bored. so i shall take an afternoon nap.

2006-10-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

life has became meaningless for me. i have no goal in life! and that is killing me. really. do you know how painful it is to have no goal in life??? its those kind of pain that will stab you yet not kill you but let you bleed slowly and die even more slowly. the painful part is not the stabbing. yet it is the knowledge of your own soon-coming yet not-coming death. the feeling is painful. simply painful.

i spent today like a wanderer. i was at home the whole day(not including night)yet i miraclously spent the day like a wanderer. how did i wander??? i wandered from room to room not knowing what to do.

before that, lets talk about sleeping. in the morning, i woke up at 9.30. but i got up at 11. why??? because i thought: "if i have nothing to do, might as well sleep more instead of forcing yourself to do something." so i got myself to lie in bed for another 1 hour and 30 minutes thing of what to do for the whole day. i know, i am mad, but what should i have done???

after i woke up, i tried making myself spend 1 hour on eating but i failed. very badly. i only took 10 minutes.

i slacked around. i went so desperate i almost wanted to teach my sister(her exams are coming) although i don't make a good teacher. i gave the idea up because she was doing compo. so i went to play with owen instead.

can you imagine it??? a 14 year old playing with a 4 year old out of boredom. but he wanted to draw and there was nothing i could do for him in the field of art and so i went away.

i watched xiao2 bao3 yu3 kang1 xi1 and i did that for the whole day. i was bored! really. i was!

then in the evening, we went to people's park to buy new clothes for a wedding dinner. its on next friday. oh i might have dalt. oh no. nvm. i'll think about it when the time comes. now, i came up with a plan during shopping. i will go on 'lone soaking' tmr. but the plan was rejected by my mummy. and when she finally agreed, it was unwillingly. so i will not be going 'lone soaking' tmr. there goes the plan.

i am bored. i have no short-term goal. and that is bad.

i am bored. really.

2006-10-13T19:48:00.000+08:00

today was a totally slackish and useless day. i went through today doing nothing with any worth at all. omg, i am becoming bad.

i got 25/50 for history. i am okay with it though. because i never expected to score high for it anyway. i got 83/100 for maths and i am very unhappy with it. i expected more but i am not feeling that bad about it anyway. its not that kind of sadness that will kill me so, ya... i am contradicting myself but lalalalalala....

i played bridge with sheila and rensyn and clara and a few more people and i realise i suck at that game. i keep hai-ing my partner lose. hahaha....

i got many many mosquito bites from chalet. very itchy. just now very itchy, then yiwei decided to use her magic hand and rub the one on my knee and cover it so that i cannot hit it. yiwei is so nice.

then after i went home i bathed and ate and after that watched tv until 6 something then i sleep until 7. now i am watching tv again. i had macdonalds for dinner which was satisfying other than soggy fries.

i am itching to play mahjong. this is bad actually. very very bad. later i lan4 du3 cheng2 xing4 then become gambler then cannot become doctor then cannot become gyneacologist then all my dreams all gone. i will stop myself from playing too much mahjong. yes. that is what i will do.

i am going to watch tv to save myself from boredom and a crazy nerve in me who likes to dance and sing when i am bored.

2006-10-12T14:35:00.000+08:00

chalet is over. what i got:

1. never think that it will not be cold and do not bring a jacket because of that thinking.
2. playing mahjong tong xiao is exciting and tiring
3. sleeping out in the cold is warming when you have a squadmate to give you a towel for a blanket even though you have fallen asleep.
4. eat on time and dun jump after that if not you will have to go home and sleep and not get to go for BBQ.
5. you can sleep for 14 hours if you din sleep for one night.
6. soaking can make you darker but soaking somewhere without building will give better results.
7. mahjong is addictive.

2006-10-12T14:02:00.000+08:00

squad chalet is over. but it was fun. i din get to stay the 2nd night but it was fun anw.

first day. my mummy allowed me to stay over for 2 nights. happpy happy. reached jurong east mrt at 1 though we said to meet at 1.30. read and waited. jinqing arrived after me. then huishan who was very kind and because of that donated 8 dollars. haha. then we met most sqms and went to chalet. theni realised that i went to CHERVONS before because of somebody's wedding. squadmates went swimming. i went soaking. and after some squadmates went to giant at IMM to buy stuff, we started tanning and we lied in a straight row, looking like some bimbos but nevermind. then we went in, bathe and i took out a book while squadmates watched i not stupid too.

maams came at ard 6 and atmosphere became quite gan1 ga4 but anw, we went to the back and played badminton and ju came up with lots of funny positions and zhiyi took them down to make a xie3 zhen1 ji1.

then zhiyi taughted me how to play mahjong.and i played from 7 - 12. then squadmates dunno go where and some stayed behind while i bathed. its bad to bathe so late but i was sticky. then after i came out, ju went in and i slacked around and play some games but later after squadmates went to sleep, i went back to the mahjong table to see ppl play. during that time, i was nice and taught jie qi how to play, so i became jieqi's shifu and zhiyi became zu3 shiye.

after that, some squadmate went to sleep and let me play and i played tong3 xiao3 till five. yinhwee and i went to sleep outside at 5 and i managed to catch some sleep till 5.30. yinhwee is very nicce because she got me a towel when she got herself one and it was cold mind you! and there were mosquitoes!

we went it at 5.30 and it was freezing inside because of the air con and we had to sleep on the floor. i gave up at ard 5.45 and went to play badminton with huishan and zhiyi. we ended at 6.30 and went to look for yuan han before we talked till tian1 liang4. after that i went to eat breakfast and play mahjong and waited for 11 o'clock for sqms to go bowling. i din want to bowl and so i swam with ju and huishan. then i bathed and went in to get something to eat. maams were playing mahjong. and we wasted our time and my stomach started hurting and i slepy on the bed and i finally went home at 6. dd came to fetch me.

reached home, i ate, and i slept at 7 till 9 this morning. its alot but i was tired. i went back to chalet to give the folder with the receipt and so to yinhwee and i stayed there and watched princess diaries 2 and played few rounds of mahjong and we went home at 12. i missed the first 188 and took the second one with estella in it. we talked alot and she was on her way to lot 1 to watch movie with sheila, wing yau, ren syn and melissa. and i accompanied her to cck and walked with her to find ren syn and i went back to take bus home.

i went to greenridge to look at cds and came home soon after. i reached home at 13 45.

i am happy.

2006-10-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

nobody ever understands how much i wish i could stay over for 2 nights at squad chalet. its not just anything to me. really. it saves me alot of trouble and i just want to be there, with my squadmates. is it really that difficult a wish to fufill???

i know, my mum is worried for my safety, my character development, etc. i know, i understand, but how do i balance the maturity i should show and my great desire to be part of my squad. it is not that i am ostracised by my squadmates or something, but its just this desire, this want to be part of everything they do.

i never had any friends this close since i was in primary 4. friends i can talk to about anything. these people arent just normal friends. they are part of my life. even though me and ju are like always quarrelling, i can surely say, ju is still one of my closest friend compared to any other ppl. =D

ah sigh. owells. i am going to go prepare for squad chalet already.

i am happalighted.

2006-10-09T11:36:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha! science is OVER!!! wahahahaha. i finished the paper at 9.47 and didn't check. at 9.47, chem paper had 3 blanks and bio had 4. physics was all done. after 5-8 minutes of internal conflict on whether to leave it like that or not, courage won and said: "people who leave blanks in exams are nuo4 fu1-s" and i am not a nuo4 fu1 so i answered all the questions in the end with crap answers. ms chng will faint if she finds out that my cytosine became cytomine and guanine became gynine. hahaha....

after science paper, i escaped from class to look for squadmates and i saw ms yeo on the way and i greeted her and she smiled and i smiled back. then she asked me to look for joanne cos joanne is a bad girl(ms yeo didn't say this!!! i did.) and did not hand in AMC thing thing and so i looked for joanne and i found her in her class. we went to maths dept but ms yeo wasnt there. turned out that she was in 204. so we went to 204 and i left with squadmates.

now i am free. yesterday slept at 2 o clock but i am not tired at all. no not at all. xD i am going to pack my table later. it filled with mixed notes. mixed notes is notes with all kind of subjects in it. and i will dump everything into the storeroom. yes. that is what i will do. really. i promise!

dd is sick! and he didnt go to work today. and he still eat cuttlefish and never go and rest. then he drink coffee. how can he do this to himself. and worst of all is that he dun want to fetch me home from school when he can drive and i cannot. that is not fair.

squad chalet is tmr!!!! i cannot wait. my squadmates bring colour to my life.

all down. EOYs ended. 1 more night to squad chalet.

2006-10-08T21:10:00.000+08:00

today is quite good a day. i finished studying all 3 topics. managed to catch the essence of balancing equations.

just went to sheng siong. i was just thinking, would there be any other sec 2 NY girl like me, going out just before their science exam and not getting worried at all. i must be thinking my exams over. and i met a cat. when i was having dinner at a coffee shop. i jumped out of my seat, but my dd instead of saving me by chasing away the cat, scolded me saying that i should sit down. darn cat.

i will pass my exam tmr. really.

squadmates, i bought a huge packet of mamee and i am gonna bring it to chalet. i will take one packet out and there will be left with 39 packets. then each one of us will take 3. =D

1 more exam to go. just tmr. jiayou jomain!!! 2 days to squad chalet.

i can do it and i will.

2006-10-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

i am happalighted. i spent the whole of today studying science, chemistry and biology, with my new da4 chang2 jin1 sound track booming in my ears. i like 'The Legend Becomes History'

its very meaningful and it questions life and love:

lifetime is the ends to remember
still i say wonder why,
wonder why, we are born into this lives to die
sigh lie as i bleed from the future
he's a ray of light
ray of light, like the first dream of sun from the sky

see, your love is a peace of mine
life is a vale of tears the moon
scatters great flakes of the crying
love is a lost sea in history
the legend becomes history

its a really nice song. =D

i am feeling very accomplished. tonight i will do physics, and i will spend tmr revising.

i got my jiejie to sit down with me to teach me chem. and i can now balance equations properly and well. and i managed to learn alot from my jiejie's chem o level guidebook. its better than all my notes put together. at least it explains things properly. i got to know that relative atomic mass is very easy to count one.

and after i finished bio, i realised that ~~mensuration~~ menstruation occurs on the first day of the menstrual cycle and not the 15th. i thought like mooncake festival like that one leh. to think i have been through this for like what 6 years X 12 months = 72 times!!!! what kind of an owner of my own body am i???

there is a lion dance troupe near my house and they are so loud. how i wish i can da ba4 as loud as them. wonder if they will suffocate in this haze.

i am going out later, to buy clothes for my grand uncle's son's wedding, which in other words is my mother's cousin's wedding which again in other words is my grand cousin's wedding. i am wearing something feminine for once since i was 7. but not that feminine anw, its still pants. i totally refuse to wear a skirt.

2 days to end of EOYs, 3 days to start of squad chalet.

2006-10-07T09:16:00.000+08:00

i am blogging now cos i din get to blog yesterday. i went to watch movie and came back at 12 and the internet wouldnt work and so i thought i would blog today, first thing in the morning.

yesterday was maths. in the morning i was quite worried but after i got the paper i realised there wasnt anything very difficult in the paper and i could do all the qns other than the bonus and i chose option 2 for qn 14. so, it went quite ok and i managed to finish the paper 15 minutes before and had time to check. actually i could have finished earlier but i slowed down unintentionally at the back from ard qn 9-14 because i reached qn 9 at 08 36. and i had 2 more hours to finish 6 qns. i finished qn 12 at 0945 and i got worried cos i thought must draw graph but in the end i chose to do mensuration.

after that i went to bai4 po3 po2 because it was the 15th day of lunar eighth month. which is mooncake festival and my po3 po2's death anniversary. and we went all the way to mandai and back. we took a taxi back and i alighted near my primary school and i walked home the same way i used to 2 years ago and how i wished i was still in primary school.

after that i went home and indulged myself in da4 chang2 jin1. i am going to watch it from the start again after monday. 2 more days. jiayou jomain.

i went to watch ROB-B-HOOD and it was so funny. and touching also. you dunno what wonders a baby can do. everyone should go watch. i am acting as if i have no more exam.

squadmates, i have got the moon and my mum allowed me to stay over for 1 night. i tried to persuade her but she said:

do not ask for the sky when you have gotten the moon.

and i am regretful. really regretful. i am feeling regretful at my inability to risk it all, including my moon, to get the sky.

and i cut my hair again. i am not going to attempt to let it grow long already because my cca does not allow my hair to be in guo4 du4 shi2 qi1. meaning that my hair cannot be half long because touch the collar must tie up, touch the eyebrow must pin up and so i decided to wait until i pass out than say which is another 2 years later.

oh, and i bought a da4 chang2 jin1 soundtrack. i am so happy. and i bought a toy too. counter four!

5 down, 1 to go. 2 days to end of EOYs. 3 days to start of squad chalet.

i will pass my exams and do well even.

2006-10-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

i will pass my geography. really. it went really well. i did qn 3 & 4 and basic map reading lost 1 mark liao. they ask for food SOURCE and i gave the food. so dumb. my qn 3 & 4 very short and i scribbled all over my paper to remember the points. lalala. 5, 5, 6, 4, 3, 4, 5.

i went to look for ms yeo to give her the money for the AMC and i couldnt find joanne and so i couldnt tell her to give it to Ms Yeo and i couldnt find melissa either so i asked deborah to call her and tell her. and i went to GO with bernicelin and soggy to return class key and we met grace and wenqi and yixian at the bus stop and wenqi took 67 with me bernicelin and soggy.

on the bus, i noticed something written in malay.

Sila serahkan tempat duduk ini kepada orang tua atua orang cacat

so i read it. Reading what i learnt in conversational malay, it bacame like this:

Sila ~~serahkan~~ ~~tempat~~ duduk ini ~~kepada~~ orang ~~tua~~ ~~atua~~ orang cacat

which in direct translation means 'please sit this people people disable'. which in indirect translation means 'please sit on the disabled people.'

oh i swear i am getting lamer and lamer by the day. my jokes are getting colder and colder.

bernice and i took 67 all the way to cck and we bought ice-cream from macdonalds. before that i asked bernice, "early in the morning got ice cream anot?" bernice said she would ask and she started phrasing... "er, early in the morning do you sell ice cream?" i told her that was not a nice way to ask and she rearranged the words... "er do you sell ice cream early in the morning?" and i told her it doesnt sound very polite either and i told her to ask "do you sell ice cream now?" and she agreed and they did sell ice cream and so we bought it. on the way back to take 190, we were creating words when we saw melody. she went 'hi' very loudly and so we 'hi'-ed back. and we went on creating words.

today's creation:

happalighted -- when a person is happalighted, he or she is experiencing very mild happiness.

bernice reminded me to blog about this:

NOTICE

for class chalet:

1. bernice gets to sleep on the sofa because she has been my friend for very long.

2. my star group gets to sleep on my bed and i will sleep on my parents bed because my parents will be going to chalet.

3. because my star group is sleeping on my bed, joleen will be the only one in the storeroom and she might get scared and so she gets to sleep in the living room.

4. grace gets to sleep on the sofa too cos she said i was nice.

thats all the changes made today. haha.

4 down, 2 to go. 4 more days to end of EOYs. 5 more days to squad chalet.

i will sleep early tonight. Ms Yeo told me to and so i will. =)

2006-10-04T14:26:00.000+08:00

chinese is OVER. i am so happy. everything went well today. i woke up, drank my usual dose of chicken essence and went to school. squadmates are all talking about squad chalet.

chinese paper ONE. i had time to finish and my compo was quite good. i ended up writing narrative instead of expository which i thought i would write but there is no such thing other than bao4 zhang1 bao4 dao3 with which i did not want to take my chances so i didn't do it. i did the Q4. instead. i finished a good 5 minutes beforehand and looked through to make sure it was good and i handed it up!

recess i gave away $$35 to zhiyi and i feel heartbroken but its for good cause and fun so i gave it willingly. i sound so sad. but anw, i ate and i was nice and i sat with 207 after i sat with squadmates. they split up into two, as in those i mix with and so i had to sit with both. i sat with sok liuyi they all first and was kind for 2 minutes. then i sat with grace they all and they said they feel second-handed and i told them they were third. i feel so mean.

then i went back to class and got ready for paper TWO. i finished the da4 chang2 jin1 passage first and i laughed at it. the minute i saw it i was smiling... i read the passage before! though i cannot confirm that i will get all correct. as in i read the first half before(at least it was similar to what i read brfore), the second half was a bit random. half the class thought of me when they read the passage. i feel so honoured. xD

i did summary first as usual before i did the last compre and i finished like 15 minutes before but YIWEI DIDN'T FINISH THE PAPER!!!! i feel like mudering her. lucky she listen to me and do summary first. can you imagine her losing 20 marks just like that??? and i left the class and went home. but after i reached the bus stop, i realised i didn't bring my wallet and so i had to go back and on the way i saw sok and i pulled her back with me. she kept saying: "you good lor, left you wallet in class and just pull me like that. "

then i went to the busstop with her and i promised to take 67 with her but siewying waited for us and so we went to the bus stop together. then 67 came first and we took 67. on the bus, we talked about handphone covers and how sok has a gooey handphone cover and i said to her:

Jomain: i want one too, bring me go buy.
Sok: ok, holidays we go and buy.
Jomain: dun want, holidays i want to sleep.
Sok: so lazy.
Jomain: immediately after EOYs i cannot i go squad chalet.
Sok: then how? you want me to go to your chalet, bring you go buy then fly you back???
Jomain: yeah
Sok: too bad, i cannot.
Jomain: but just now you say you can.
Sok: no, just now i ask you you want anot, i never say i can.
Jomain: you cheat my feelings.....

anw, we went on to talk about about chalet and i tell her that 207 should have a sleepover. and at where??? my house. i even got the sleeping arrangement all figured out.

NOTICE

sleeping will be in index order for easier administration purposes. people can mutually swap with people to sleep with whoever you want to sleep with provided both parties agree. but for reg no 1-3, 19-21, 35-36, i think will be very difficult. hahaha.

plan goes as follows:

1-3 in my daddy's toilet.
4-5 in my daddy's walk-in-wardrobe
6-13 in the masters bedroom (no 12 is special and gets to sleep on the bed. the rests will sleep on the floor in their sleeping bags.)
14-18 in my jie jie's room
19-21 in the storeroom(you get to lock your door and you are the safest cos the storeroom is the bomb shelter.)
22-30 in the living room
31-34 in the kitchen
35-36 in the kitchen toilet

Disclaimer: the above is solely used for 207 entertainment purposes and will not come true. Also, it is not a show of my biasedness against anyone in the class because it really is in index no.

haha. sok was laughing all the way on the bus.

i am so amusing.

3 down, 3 to go. 5 days to end of EOYs. 6 days to start of squad chalet.

i will pass. and i will do well.

2006-10-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

language arts today was good. chicken essence really helps! buy BRANDS chicken essence for better quality in exams. if you got money, buy everyday also can!

before paper ONE, Mrs Koh saw me outside the class and we started a conversation.

Mrs Koh: How are you feeling??
Jomain: Very good!
Mrs Koh: Good about exams?
Jomain: yeah. i will pass!

hahah. i realised that after EOYs started, i keep saying that i will pass. anw, my paper one was not that very good. i wrote expository. i spent 25 minutes writing it. finished my compo at 8.25 a.m. Logically speaking, i could have had alot of time to do my unseen but i counted the words for my compo and i spent 10 minutes doing it. now i think about it i feel quite dumb. anw, my compo is 476 words long and i had a good sense of security after that. anw, i started my unseen at 8.35. and you know what happened??? i spent 10 minutes reading the prose and 25 minutes annotating it. i keep doing dumb things. i started my first qn at 9.05 and finished it at 9.35 because its very long and i keep dunno how to start. so my first (a) qn was 1 and a 1/2 pages long but the second (b) qn was only 1/2 a page long. Mrs Koh will kill me.

then after first paper, i went to look for ms yeo and i went with Joanne and we waited for a while then realised that ms yeo was in the room. and we took the AMC cert from her and went back to class.

second paper. quite ok. my hand writing very nice throughout. but the summary, i actually want to re-write de but i write until half-way no time le so i tore it up. anw, i only cancelled 1 line out because of one word and so its lookable and so i handed it up.

i then gave out the certs and went home soon after. i took 171 with bernicelin who i suspect is going mad. but anw, i still took the bus with her. i went to plaza and bowrrowed chinese books so that i could change my mentality to chinese. i always do that before chinese exams.

theni went to my mummy's office and came home at 2. reached home at 2.30 and i slept. and alot of people keep calling when i sleep. ard 5 something huiying called and i think i sounded really sleepy. so malu. she told me about revision paper and i will remember to ask the class about it.

i watched 'better halves' and decided that after EOYs i will buy it and watch it over again.

2 down, 4 to go. 6 days to end of EOYs. 7 days to start of squad chalet.

i will do well. i will pass my EOYs well.

2006-10-02T15:48:00.000+08:00

history today, was not that hard.

in fact it was easy. but i would have prefered the SEQ colonialism qn to be on the straits settlements. but anw, i wrote long long answers to short short qns. was a nice paper other than the fact that my hand refused to cooperate and i could writes nice, beautiful fast answers. when i turned my head after the paper cos i din have time to turn it during the paper, i saw horrendous writing that was unreadable.

i pity the teacher who is going to mark the last qn. cos thats where all the writing goes screwed. for me i managed to maintain my writing to readable state but the words just grew BIGGER.
i did my SEQ first, then my SBQ. cos i figured that the last qn of my SEQ is worth more than the last qn of my SBQ. so i did SEQ first. aiyah, i just like to do things like that. i do the back first then the front.

1 down, 5 to go. 7 days to end of EOYs. 8 days to start of squad chalet.

i will pass history.

2006-10-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

oh my squadmates, i just quarrelled with my sister over squad chalet because i wanted to stay over but my sis dun want because she say its unfair because she din get to. but my mother finally agreed to let me stay overnight one night but i might be able to convince her again. though the probability is small.

if i can stay one night, which night would yall prefer???

anw, my today afternoon was wasted cos we went to the expo despite my exam tmr and went to some funny children's carnival for my cousins to play. and obviously i was too YOUNG to play there. i am like what? 4? or 14??

then we wasted more time at the seLect food court and i tried to study but din work. but before that on my way there, i got my malaysian auntie's husband to go over malaya's history with me and it helped quite alot. and my gu-zhang was so good with the dates. he almost killed me when i said that malaya got independence in 1959. its 1957, not 59. sigh.

i am confident i will pass history tmr. i studied alot 3 days ago till now. i will pass and i will do well. i promise.

1 more night to start of EOYs. 8 days to end of EOYs. 9 days to start of squad chalet. i am so excited. =)

2006-10-01T11:12:00.000+08:00

oh i havent blogged for erm, 1 day and its because of the following reasons:

1) the internet connection always dun work, when i can play.
2) i have been a really good girl, and studying history in my room.

therefore, i din blog. but i want to write about this very gross incident i saw at the market yesterday morning. wenqi, if you are reading this, i suggest you dun go on....

PAUSE FOR WENQI

ok, i went to the market with my mummy ytd because i was getting stuffed to death because of my history and so i went to tou4 tou4 qi and something like that. then my mummy wanted to buy chicken to cook chicken curry and she went to buy it and i followed her. and she told the uncle that she wanted 1 chicken, qu4 pi2. and the uncle chop the chicken up so very grossly that i was grossed out. but the curry tasted nice. xD

then in the afternoon, the wind was very big. so my clothes peg couldnt take the energy exerted on it and it decided to want to break. my meimei saw it threatening to break but she had to ponder for like 2 minutes before she decided to try and save her pe tee shirts and my mummy's towel. but when she tried to save it, the pegs(4 clothes pegs) decided to give way and her pe tees dropped to the 15th level and my mummy's towel dropped to the 12th.

so we waited for my dd to go and sleep before we tried to save it because my dd will nag and scold about how dangerous it is to stick your head out of the window, but we still did it anw.

we erm, used nylon, tied together with twine and a hook and we hooked up all her tee shirts and the towel as well.

lalala. yesterday was so cool.

2006-09-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

oh i really should be studying now. afterall, history's on monday but i cannot resist the temptation of blogging and so i am here. i am a really good girl you know. i studied for erm, erm... 4 hours straight on 2 ppts. i used one hour for the 'reasons for western colonisation in SEA' page in the first ppt on colonialism. lalalalala.

i am prepared to score 15/7 if the qn. 'what were the reasons for western colonisation in South east asia ???' using this piece of note. see clearly that it explains very very clearly about the 3 main reasons for western colonisation. i will pass history very very well with a score of 15/7 for the second essay qn. on colonialism. yes. i will.

ok, so to assure that i score 30/7 for my history, i must go study now. but i shall show you two pictures i took at my mummy's school. they are pictures of tissue paper which i chop the pcf logo on to make it look like some restaurants' serviette. and besides the pcf words, it looks relatively artistic. =D

i will pass my EOYs. i promise again. 10 more days to end of EOYs. 11 more days to start of squad chalet.

2006-09-28T16:52:00.000+08:00

i must say that wenqi is getting very stressed up these days. its so difficult to make her laugh. and she hardly smile as well. and it is very scary to sit next to a person who hardly smiles.

today, i played muderer with sheila and wing yau and lynn and joey and liwen etc etc. its a rather lame game but quite fun. esp when you play with sheila cos she wink so un-wink like and she will kick-kick me to tell me she winked at me. haha.

and we watched my fair lady during music. its a nice show, but it wasn't shuang because mr lim keep on FF-ing. i will like it and will want it. i want so many many things.

i am now waiting for my lunch at 16.53 because my jiejie is so slow and is still taking her own sweet time at plaza. WITH MY LUNCH!!! argh. i am hungry.

i want monday to be tmr. i want the EOYs to come quickly. i want it to go even quicker. i want to go for squad chalet. i want to be over and done with it. but strange as it seems, this year for me is much easier then last year. i am not as stressed and din push myself as hard. but i hope i do as well. though i din do really well but it was passable. and i want to score higher then last year for my sciences and geography. i can and i will. jiayou jomain. <-- alliteration

jiayou to all my squadmates, people in 207 and everyone i know for their EOYs.

i will do well. i promise.

2006-09-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

let me tell yall what happened after the first post.

so after i offed the com i studied history abit and then i watched da4 chang2 jin1 and tian2 mi4 feng1 bao4 and i went out to go with my mama to her course.

so i met my mama at my meimei's school, and we went to bugis but after i got off the bus i felt like vomiting but that is not important.we had lunch and also bought my mummy's presents for her kids in the kindergarten at a value dollar store. and i bought a gun. a revolver to be exact. just that the turning thing thing cannot come out cos its a kids gun. but anw, i bought it and 2 bows. one for my meimei and one for me. but i ralised my jiejie doesnt have anything so i decided to give her the bow and i kept the gun.

then we went to my mama's course place and i went in feeling awkward and such. but i still went it. i sat down and then my mummy shifted some of the things on the table so that me and my meimei could sit there. then this other woman who i din really like came over and sat near to me. then the lecturer came over and said in a quite fierce voice about who shifted her things and such and my mummy had to put the things back.

i felt humiliated i tell you, i did. she spoke in such a tone no teacher in my life have ever spoke to me in before. i was affected. very greatly. i felt upset and i didn't like it. not at all. i felt upset for myself, and for my mother. so, in a fit of anger and upsetness, i left the place. i packed up, asked my meimei to do the same, said somethings about where i'll be going to to my mother and i left. i just left. i went to the national library just opposite the place. and on my way there, my mummy called me. she told me that the lecturer wasnt speaking to me, she was speaking to the other woman there but i din care. she had hurt me already and with unbalanced emotions, i cried. i didnt stop until i reached the library. my sis said that she din understand why i cried, but i dun know either.

lately, i am unable to control my emotions very well like how i do at the rest of the year. i just cry for the slightest sad things that happen to me. it is because of the EOYS i guess, the stress i am putting on myself. but i do not cry because i din get good results. that is not me.

anw, i cooled down and later my mummy sent me a message and i cried again. but anw, i was able to balance everything out again and that is the only reason why i am able to blog about this so calmly now. i am not crying for your info. (:

i read alot at the library. da4 chang2 jin1, liang2 zhu4, cang1 tian1 you3 lei4 and many more. and later i came back and i started shooting my meimei's soft toy tortise with my gun. and i only missed twice out of 6 X 7 times. =D

i like my gun and i miss my squadmates. i want to be back in school quickly.

2006-09-27T08:58:00.000+08:00

let me tell everyone here something. i have decided to fail my history. ppl might ask, can like dat decide one meh??? i say can. but the thing is that you can only decide to fail, cannot decide to pass. if you decide to fail, just dun study that subject. sure fail method. haha

actually din want to do the history mock paper one leh. because i thought, if i dun do i cannot cheat then i wun see that ms koh, but then that little Ms koh followed me everywhere until i must do the mock paper. the little Ms koh that was following me wasn't saying "dun cheat!" she was saying "do your mock paper". so in the end i did my mock paper. lalala.

i spent my ytd night studying, until 2 a.m. i actually wanted to go and post my unseen prose de but then i thought if i post so late later let Mrs Koh see then she will say i crazy, so late then post so in the end, i posted this morning. omg. i took 1 hour to post it.

i am going to eat breakfast le.

2006-09-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

today, up till now is not a very fruitful day. but it is more fruitful a day then yesterday.

i was on msn just now and i talked to joey for almost up to an hour. joey is one of the easiest people to talkto in our class. anw, i asked her lots of funny qns and she gave me lots of funny answers and we ended up speaking in caps. hahaha.

then i asked her what i should eat and she gave me lots of suggestion and i ended up eating something she didnt suggest. i was at my mum's office so i had to go out to the coffee shop to buy lunch lah. so i ended up eating mixed veg rice. and i asked her to guess what i eat and she guessed it after i told her it was very colourful. joey is smart.

after that i asked her to guess what song i was listening to and she couldnt guess it and she ended up in caps saying: "I GIVE UP LA WAHLAO!"

then later we started talking about our drama. and then we decided on how many siblings red riding hood had which is none. and red riding hood is only half a daughter. haha.

then i ask her whether she eat already and she said she was eating and she ask me to guess what she was eating which goes like this:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ *space* _ _ _ *space* _ _ *space* _ _ _ *space* _ _ _ _ _ *space* _ _ _ _ _

if you can guess it, you're a genius! so i gave a stupid answer saying 'fishball cats aa and doggy soupp' because i really din know what it was. and you know what it really means??? its FISHBALL MEE IN MEE REBUS SAUCE!!! which in actual fact there is no such thing and that joey just made it up on her own and so of course i had to give up before she told me.

then i ask her if she finish her homework and she said she only did the response for the unseen prose and i scared her by telling her i finished my maths, history and science and she got scared and started OMG OMG-ing and then i say to her you still here talking to me and we decided to end our convo there. haha. joey is so hilarious.

2006-09-26T07:55:00.000+08:00

ok, i keep asking myself this morning, why am i waking up at this even more unearthly hour(as compared to yunghian) of 6 to go to my mummy's office??? and i found out the answer. because i am scared of staying at home alone. this is all because of "the maid". my jie jie borrowed it from her school library and i watched it out of curiousity(however-you-spell-it) and i got scared. the plot is so evil. and the other maid as in the dead one was so scary. she said things like, "for long i've been trying to speak to you" and i keep thinking what if some unknown ghost is trying to speak to me and i got scared so i do not want to stay at home alone.

now i am at my mummy's office and my mummy is not here cos she went for a seminar and so i get to use and play with her computer which is not what i am going to do. i am going to do my homework! i am a very very good girl you know.

owen went home yesterday. and i cannot watch barney anymore because he brought it home with him. this is so saddening. now i cant hear the nice bread song which i forgot the tune for.

and now that i am here at my mummy's office, i cannot watch the tian2 mi4 feng1 bao4 on channel u at 11a.m because there is no tv here. and i know ppl will start saying that it is a very old show which is true but its nice as well. i lost 1 hour of studying history just because of that show...

lalala. i am gonna go study le. but i realised that my tagboard is quite dead. maybe i should advertise it a little.

ok, i need to go study. i miss my squadmates...

2006-09-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

today was not so good studying day. i tried to study history and managed to only finish colonialism. this is bad. i only have 2 more days.

anw, bernice, here is your 4th evidence. ytd, i suddenly heard rain sounds from the radio and i thought, today will rain and it will be a huge thunderstorm and it rained today and it was a huge thunderstorm. hahah. bernice, i got super power!

i'm gonna carry on wif my history liao le. shan blog anymore, if not my mummy will scold me! xD

2006-09-24T15:07:00.000+08:00

hahah. today, i started a project that i have been thinking about for very long already. it is the lose-weight-before-2007 project. so, i ran from the 20th storey to the 1st and storey and back up again. =) i'm gonna keep it up for until i become lighter so that i can not get into f4l next year! xD

i have fallen in love with sudoku. my record is now six minutes for a novice challenge and i havent started on the masters part yet. (its a sudoku, novice to guru book). i bought it from popular in choa chu kang ytd and i saw the clip clip thing that sheila gets very fascinated over and i called her many many times to ask if she wants it but she didn't reply.

ytd was an ok studying day. i finidhed almost all my chapters on geog and i'm starting history tmr. i am doing basic map reading now already. =)

i bought a hairband, because mt fringe is getting very very irritating and i cant cut it cos i want to keep long hair. so i got a hairband but i am not going to wear it to school because it looks horrid. so i will wear it at home. =D

i am very happy with my new blog.

2006-09-23T15:44:00.000+08:00

owen came to my house yesterday. he was so funny. he was very solemn at first and refused to talk to me then i play with him a bit then he start talking to me liao. hahah.

i am gonna watch the banquet later. i think i will love it.

and i am very dumb. i was walking from my room to my kitchen and i was walking with a book in my hand and i kicked the corner of my wall and it took of a piece of skin and abit of flesh with it and blood started coming out of the wound and it hurts.

nevermind. this is a random post. xD

2006-09-23T15:33:00.000+08:00

people tend to contradict themselves. and people my age sometimes just cannnot decide on what they want.

if a teacher is too fierce, she is not a good teacher. if a teacher is too un-fierce, she is not a good teacher either. teachers who teach students harshly, are unkind. teachers who teach too unharshly, are bad teachers. what exactly do we want?

if we really think about it, it is in fact very difficult to make people like us happy. we want too perfect things that is non-existent in this world. it just isnt there. what we do is we lament about how bad it is, how imperfect it can be and do not catch the good of it. and so, we often miss the real essence of one. be it a person or an incident.

we really have to learn to look at the good side of things. at least thats for me. because there surely is a good side to everything. EVERYTHING.

2006-09-23T15:29:00.000+08:00

according to lynn, i am experiencing deja vu. so i looked up on what deja vu is cos i din know what it is. so i am gonna paste the whole chunk of thing i got here.

The term déjà vu is French and means, literally, "already seen." Those who have experienced the feeling describe it as an overwhelming sense of familiarity with something that shouldn't be familiar at all. Say, for example, you are traveling to England for the first time. You are touring a cathedral, and suddenly it seems as if you have been in that very spot before. Or maybe you are having dinner with a group of friends, discussing some current political topic, and you have the feeling that you've already experienced this very thing -- same friends, same dinner, same topic.
The phenomenon is rather complex, and there are many different theories as to why déjà vu happens. Swiss scholar Arthur Funkhouser suggests that there are several "déjà experiences" and asserts that in order to better study the phenomenon, the nuances between the experiences need to be noted. In the examples mentioned above, Funkhouser would describe the first incidence as déjà visité ("already visited") and the second as déjà vecu ("already experienced or lived through").
As much as 70 percent of the population reports having experienced some form of déjà vu. A higher number of incidents occurs in people 15 to 25 years old than in any other age group.
Déjà vu has been firmly associated with temporal-lobe epilepsy. Reportedly, déjà vu can occur just prior to a temporal-lobe epileptic attack. People suffering an epileptic seizure of this kind can experience déjà vu during the actual seizure activity or in the moments between convulsions.
Since déjà vu occurs in individuals with and without a medical condition, there is much speculation as to how and why this phenomenon happens. Several psychoanalysts attribute déjà vu to simple fantasy or wish fulfillment, while some psychiatrists ascribe it to a mismatching in the brain that causes the brain to mistake the present for the past. Many parapsychologists believe it is related to a past-life experience. Obviously, there is more investigation to be done.

but even if it is deja vu, it doesnt make sense for it to happen so often. but regardless, i am gonna throw it to the back of my head. So what if i can read the future?

2006-09-22T18:12:00.000+08:00

i have a feeling i can read the future.

ytd, my daddy was fetching me to school as usual. i was thinking that maybe this is one of the days that my daddy will over shot and miss the exit he was supposed to exit at and true enough, he did! and he scolded me stupid.

again, on my home ytd, i was walking home from the bus stop when i felt that someone wazs following me. i turned and saw a bearded looking dark chinese and he looked rather gangster-ish just that hes abit older. scared that he was really following me, i let him walk in front of me and i started thinking, what would happen if he sexually harrased me. then i came up with all sorts of scenarios and ways to protect myself. then the next morning which is this morning, li lao shi came in and she said that we were going to discuss about xing4 sao1 rao3. i got really shocked.

then again, there was once, when i went to btp for the first time. it was fine at first until i went into the toilet. it was my first time there and i swear i saw the toilet before. in my dreams as i remember.

then i got really scared as i put all this together and these are not the only three times.

then i talked to mrs koh about it and she told me that she is guessing that it might be because i am an observant person, as she feels about me, and that i sub-consciously take in info and form a thinking or scenario about it. Even in my dreams. she says that there is nothing wrong about this and it was quite a good skill in fact and she asked me why i was scared about it.

and i said that that was because it was unnatural and unusual to know stuff before you experience it and it is scary. but bernice however insists that knowing the future before hand is a good supernatural ability. but i do not think so.

so mrs koh asked me to keep a journal or a written record about these stuff so that i can know whether it is just that i am too observant or that i have premonitions. which is why i am writing this now.

now, i must say that today is not a good day. i spent 2 hours at macdonalds with bernice lin and only managed to study the definition of ONE geography word. Atmosphere. atmosphere can be explained as a blanket of air surrounding the earth and it absorbs energy from the sun so that we have a moderate temperature when we are living here. (:

2006-09-21T18:47:00.000+08:00

today was a fruitful day.

i did alot of studying today. dance was so funny. chen lao shi ask me to help her give grades cos i was on mc and cannot do dance cos of my back. and she was so funny when she point point at the people she wanted to give A to. then music was astonishingly ok. i passed my music test with 21/25. and that is very good for a musically idiotic person like me!

during recess i borrowed 6 books from school library. all chinese except for 1 english, no qiong2 yao2. this is because our school library does not have a good wide variety of qiong2 yao2 books. all they have is chuang1 wai4, yan1 yu3 meng2 meng2, and huan2 zhu1 ge2 ge4. and also another chao2 sheng1 which is not under qiong2 yao2 quan2 ji2. which is actually no good because can you imagine how disappointed readers like me will be???

anw, i was almost late for lesson cos the queue was quite long cos ppl want to borrow 10 books for the holidays. haha.

chinese nothing much lah. went through compos and stuff. and signed marksheet which i scored not bad for. its not very good but its ok for me. i got B3, 68. lalala. science this really nice, demure and decent looking teacher walked in and her name is ms goh. ppl keep calling her barbie doll teacher which i so dun agree to because she is much more prettier than a barbie doll. and i wun mind her teaching me science next year either cos she is so nice and beautiful although she talks quite soft. that is if she teaches upper sec of course.

i ate lunch with squadmates. i actually din want to eat de but my gastric acted up so i had no choice.

lang arts went quite ok. i din have to do corrections for my unseen prose for which i got 18/25 because my was passable. maths we went through a few questions from textbook end-of-year specimen paper 2&3 which i thought was quite easy which ms yeo thought was quite easy which wenqi thought was quite easy as well. but i guess different ppl react differently to maths bah. some unlike me do not like maths. xD

then me bernice and sarah went to KAP to study. i did quite alot! finished up all my maths specimen paper(end of year only) and finished geog chapter 1, starting chapter 2.

this is my reasoning. i will study geog first, then put it to the back of my mind, then study history, and throw it away after its over. then dig out geog and it may wish to stay there in my brain if it wants. and i'll memorise science and lock it in my brain cos it is not supposed to runaway. after all i'm opting for 3 sciences.

down to it, its a fruitful day. i studied alot. =)

2006-09-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

i am tired of studying and so i am here giving another post after my last one 4 hours ago.

i often ask myself: "why do we study and what for? why dun we live like how our ancestors lived many many years ago?"

then the answer comes,"because we want to improve and make our lives better."

but then another question comes, "are we sure that technology and improvement are making our lives better rather than bringing us to destruction?"

well, that i do not know. so i have decided that the only reason i am studying is because the world wants me to study. at least MY WORLD does.

so i have decided again that i will study because my world wants be to study and my world wants me to study to become someone useful in life and so i shall be. however, the definition of USEFUL, will be defined by me.

2006-09-20T16:46:00.000+08:00

ha! finally got all my links and all in place... must thank alot of ppl for helping me with this blog.

ytd joey was so funny. we were in com lab and so she asked me "Jomain, you want me to help you create a blog?" and i said "ok" and she almost vomited blood helping me. well, you cant blame me because it is not my fault that i dun know how to use blogger and there really is nothing i know how to do with a blog, so i had lots and lots of help from joey and soggy. they were nice enough to sit me through it all! Fortunately, i am a very fast learner and i caught it the first time they taught me.

if you looked at my blog url, you might think that i am very zi4 lian4(which i will not deny) but however, i did not choose it myself. Joey chose it for me and i thought why not? jomain-jomain sounds nice. and so i took it. haha.

today on my way home, i took the same bus as a hwa chong guy. and we alighted at the same stop. and we were walking home but we didn't know each other. so i was walking behind him cos i didn't want to walk fast. then, after around 30 seconds into the walking, he turned. and he made it a point to turn back every few steps he walked to see if i was still behind him. i think he thought i was following him but i wasnt. and so he walked. so thinking that he knew his way and i didn't, he decided to take one big round and i didn't follow him so i walked home slowly, taking my time. but when the road of the one big round and the road that i was walking met, he was still in front of me. and when he turned, i think he got a shock. he actually stays at the block just next to mine. haha.

2006-09-19T13:36:00.000+08:00

hello. my new blog!!! first one thanks to JOEY!!!